The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
I cannot tell why, at this moment, our first conversation together, when
he came to our house with Mr. Osborne, returned to my memory. I did not
turn towards him nor lift my eyes, but I asked in a tone as low and
hurried as his own, "Almost the first time you ever spoke to me, you
were going to call me Hester--why was that?"
He did not answer me immediately. "Because your name became the sweetest
sound in the world to me, the first time I heard it," he said, after a
moment's pause. I believed him--I was not vain of it, it seemed to be a
merit in him to think so of me, but no merit in me.
"Not a word--not a word--must I go away then--will you answer me
nothing?" he said, at last, after another interval, with other wild
words of tenderness, such as had never been said to me before, and such
as no woman can tell again. I was roused by his outcry, I turned for an
instant to look at him, and then I suddenly felt my face burn and my
brow throb, and then--it seemed he was satisfied, and wanted no more
words from me.
And we wandered on together, out from the shadows of the trees, where
the sun came gleaming and glistening upon us like a friend who had found
us out. I think there never was such a night of content, and
satisfaction, and peace; there was the calm of night, and the flush of
hope for another day upon the heavens; and the sweet light blessed the
earth, and the earth lay still under it in a great joy, too deep to be
expressed. I was leaning with my hand upon his arm--I was leaning my
heart upon him, so that I could have wept for the delight of this sweet
ease and rest. Yes! it was the love of the Poets that had overtaken us,
and put our hands together. As he clasped both his hands over one of
mine, he said it was for ever and for ever--for ever and for ever, and
lingered on the words. I said nothing--but the clasp of his hands
holding me, stirred the very depths in my heart. I was alone no longer,
I wanted to tell him everything--my secret thoughts, my fears--all that
had ever happened to me. I could not tell him my fancies about himself,
though I listened so eagerly to all he said of me, but all my life came
brightening up before me, I was eager to show it all to him--I was
jealous of having anything in which he had no share.
We went up and down--up and down--the same bit of enchanted ground, and
it was only when I felt a chill breath of air, and slightly shivered at
it, and when he put up my shawl upon my shoulders, and drew it round me
so anxiously and tenderly, that I glanced up at the sky to escape his
eyes which were gazing full upon me, and saw that it was getting quite
dark, and must be late. "Is it late?" I said, starting suddenly at the
thought of my father; "they will wonder where I am--oh! I must go home."
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