"However, when I reflect upon this woman, I do not know whether in the main I am the worse for having loved her: whenever she is recalled to my imagination my youth returns, and I feel a forgotten warmth in my veins. This affliction in my life has streaked all my conduct with a softness, of which I should otherwise have been incapable. It is, perhaps, to this dear image in my heart owing that I am apt to relent, that I easily forgive, and that many desirable things are grown into my temper, which I should not have arrived at by better motives than the thought of being one day hers. I am pretty well satisfied such a passion as I have had is never well cured; and, between you and me, I am often apt to imagine it has had some whimsical[129] effect upon my brain: for I frequently find, that in my most serious discourse I let fall some comical familiarity of speech, or odd phrase, that makes the company laugh; however, I cannot but allow she is a most excellent woman. When she is in the country I warrant she does not run into dairies, but reads upon[130] the nature of plants; but has a glass-hive, and comes into the garden out of books to see them work, and observe the policies[131] of their commonwealth. She understands everything. I would give ten pounds to hear her argue with my friend Sir Andrew Freeport about trade. No, no, for all she looks so innocent as it were, take my word for it she is no fool." T. FOOTNOTES: [122] _Conversation._ General intercourse. [123] _Salute._ Kiss. [124] _Pleasant._ Ludicrous. [125] _Except the consideration of._ Except in respect of. [126] _Presented._ _I.e._, with gifts. [127] _Personated sullenness._ Pretended, or possibly the image of, sullenness. [128] _Master of the game._ Huntsman. [129] _Whimsical._ Fantastic. [130] _Upon._ About. [131] _Policies._ Organisation. NO. 122. FRIDAY, JULY 20 _Comes jucundus in via pro vehiculo est._ PUBL. SYR. _Frag._ An agreeable companion upon the road is as good as a coach. A man's first care should be to avoid the reproaches of his own heart; his next, to escape the censures of the world: if the last interferes with the former, it ought to be entirely neglected; but otherwise there cannot be a greater satisfaction to an honest mind, than to see those approbations which it gives itself seconded by the applauses of the public: a man is more sure of his conduct, when the verdict he passes upon his own behaviour is thus warranted and confirmed by the opinion of all that know him.