To fear nothing, to count no costs, to be unlimited! The two years
seemed as long as lifetimes, since that summer when things happened; and
Morgan was still Morgan. He had never cared who was angry with him, or
who liked or disliked him. Helen had longed not to care and been
bitterly driven to do so always. She struggled to imitate him. In the
face of sudden danger, attack of angry game-preserver or owner of posted
stream, or any crisis of the woods when the partridge whirred or the fox
broke into the open, Morgan's face would not flush nor his hand tremble;
but he only seemed to gather his brows and centre himself on the
subject, while little Nellie wondered and worshipped. So he stood for an
ideal of effectiveness and freedom from the tyranny of circumstances,
which to her small experience and large deduction seemed visibly to bend
aside before and around him, from the tyranny of other people's
opinions, which he cared so little about that they turned into harmless
murmurs behind him instead of planting themselves monumentally in front.
For at times this world appeared to exist for opposition only, in iron
battle order, bristling with spears, stolid, reasonless, forbidding. It
was a caste system, a privileged aristocracy of one's elders, the
dead-line of an old régime. Morgan walked through it promptly. "People,"
he said, "pretend a lot more than they are, most of 'em. My dad doesn't
so much."
But freedom seems not to be an end in itself, only an opportunity to do
things differently. It has its own régime, its tyranny of devotions,
heroisms, and heroes, military, imperial.
That Morgan proposed a Napoleonic career for himself--reasonably such,
for he was no dreamer--that he proposed to dominate, to break through
limits and oppositions, to drive a path through the jam of men wide
enough for his shoulder muscles to work in, was merely his own candid
statement. And regarding Thaddeus, his expression sprang equally from
candor. A man's dislike for him was a poor reason for disliking that
man. To carry malice was to carry a load. A man was an engine for
covering ground and arriving at ends, and malice was burned-out slack.
Resentments of old hostilities and memories of old loves were slack,
likes and dislikes mostly whims. Mankind was various and whimsical, and
few were such as discarded futilities and went on, which was lucky for
the few.
"You're very sure of yourself, Morgan."
"Aren't you as sure of me, Nellie? You used to be. Well," he said,
slowly, "you see, if Thaddeus Bourn tried to take a fall out of me, he'd
want to be subtle, and then it would be all up with him, for I shouldn't
understand it."
"Why should he want to take a fall out of you?"
"If he doesn't, why should I mind his disliking me?"
"Wouldn't you mind being disliked by anybody, until they did something,
really?"
"Not much."
"Oh! Not by me?"
"I'd rather be disliked by the United States. Besides, that's foolish."
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