"Oh, Jeff ... no, no--really no!" she assured me in tones of which there
was no mistaking the sincerity. "I didn't mean that--poor thing!--I was
only joking when I said there was something you wouldn't tell me! Oh, do
see what I mean, dear! It's only because _I'm_ so happy that I want
everybody else to be--Kitty too--everybody! Really that's all, Jeff!"
It was not quite all, though it was enough to make my heart a little
lighter. Mingled with it was something very human that only endeared her
to me the more. Her glow and vitality had always put poor Kitty's
skimpiness completely into the shade, and what ailed her now was that
wistful longing of the victress to be magnanimous that is the uneasy
aftercrop of triumph. On herself it had all the effect of a generosity,
but that, and not jealousy, was really it....
"Well, after all, we don't know that she isn't happy," I said
cheerfully. "Anyway, she pleased herself, and--it's four years ago....
Just listen to the row!"
I was glad of the diversion that came just then. Led by a Jew's harp,
the party at the next table had broken into "Soldiers of the Queen," and
for the five hundredth time that day the song had "caught on" instantly.
The whole garden was now vociferating it, standing on seats, dancing
between the tables, their rising and falling heads a dark and bizarre
tumult in the conflicting lights. At the gate of the garden a
barrel-organ stopped and took up the same song in another key, but they
drowned it:--
"Who've b--ee--een--my lads!
And s--ee--een--my lads!"
Talk in that uproar was impossible, and again there enwrapped us that
strong sense of rich and rough and abundant life. As we leaned over our
little table to watch, Evie's finger was moving in time to the song, and
even the thought of the little house a few hundred yards away
disappeared for a moment from my own mind. A chair with a couple of
girls upon it broke, and there were shrieks and applause and whistles
and laughter; and then the song began to die away. Cheers followed it,
and cheers again, for throats cheered readily then; and then our
neighbours of the next table formed themselves into single file, and,
with a last shrill
"Who've b--ee--een--my lads!
And s--ee--een--my lads!"
marched round the garden and out into the crowds beyond. I seized my
opportunity. Evie and I followed them, I with her tucked safely away
under my arm; and we joined the dense stream that was already pouring
southwards. And as I struggled for places on a bus at Hampstead Heath
Station, my heart was grateful for that illusion of the day that had
banished, first, the remnant of Evie's sorrow, and had afterwards cut
short that impossible course of unmeasured confidences to which that
moodiness had given rise.
IV
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