"Then you might at least turn your trousers up," she added, as I made no
reply; and I stooped and did so. We resumed our walk, stopped at the
Horse Guards, and made our way slowly towards the Mall.
"Are you warm?" I asked some minutes later.
"Quite," she replied; and the silence fell on us again.
At last, somewhere near the spot where the Artillery Memorial now is,
she did speak. It was a curious question she put, her fingers working
slightly on my sleeve as she did so. During the past minutes a sense--I
hardly know how to describe it except as a sense of protection--had
begun to grow on me, the odd thing being that it was not I who protected
her, but she me. Perhaps the perfect calm with which she had claimed my
arm had begun it; it certainly now informed the very curious question
she suddenly put.
"Are you happy?" she asked.
You may imagine I was a little surprised. Quite apart from the nameless
reassurance that thrilled in her tone, some queer gage of fidelity,
though fidelity to what I could not make out, the question itself was a
long way out of the ordinary. Was I happy! Ought I not, from any point
of view she could possibly have, to be happy? Newly married--sure of
myself--wearing clothes the luxury of which was only an
anticipation--fresh from a conference with the great ones of the land
(though to be sure she could hardly know all this)--what else should I
be but happy? It looked as if for some reason or other she had supposed
I would _not_ be happy.... I spoke slowly.
"I wish you would tell me," I said, "what makes you ask that?"
She looked straight before her through the rain. "Why I ask that? It's
just that that I wanted to ask you," she replied.
"It's just that that you----" I repeated after her, stopping, however,
half-way.
Yet I felt somehow that that she had just uttered was no banal
compliment. She was not thinking of the kind of felicitation that had
been implied when she had sent Evie the teacloth. She had not asked
after Evie, and was not, I knew already, thinking of Evie. And again I
had that odd sense that she was protecting me, and would continue to
protect me.
"Well, it's an odd question--the whole thing's odd, of course--but
since you ask, I don't mind telling you. I am happy."
She turned under the umbrella eagerly, almost (I thought) joyously.
"You _are_?"
"_I_ am," I emphasised slightly.
But still she did not mention Evie. Again we walked. Then:
"You are? After all--that?"
Softly from the background of my memory there came forward what I
conceived to be her meaning. It was a humiliating one, and I hung my
head humbly.
"You mean after--poor Kitty?"
But it seemed I was quite wrong. "No, I don't mean that," she said. "Or
at any rate only partly that."
"Then," I asked quickly, "will you tell me what you _do_ mean?"
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