"Who're you?" he asked. He couldn't speak very well. When I told him
my name and that I was his sister's fiancé his face changed so he
did not look like the same person. It was beautiful. Oh, it showed
how homesick he was! Then I talked a blue streak about you, about
the girls, about "Many Waters"--how I lost my wheat, and everything.
He was intensely interested, and when I got through he whispered
that he guessed Lenore had picked a "winner." What do you think of
that? He was curious about me, and asked me questions till the nurse
made him stop. I was never so glad about anything as I was about the
happiness it evidently gave him to meet me and hear from home. I
promised to come next day if we did not sail. Then he showed what I
must call despair. He must have been passionately eager to get to
France. The nurse dragged me out. Jim called weakly after me:
"Good-by, Kurt. Stick some Germans for me!" I'll never forget his
tone nor his look.... Lenore, he doesn't expect to get over to
France.
I questioned the nurse, and she shook her head doubtfully. She
looked sad. She said Jim had been the lion of his regiment. I
questioned a doctor, and he was annoyed. He put me off with a sharp
statement that Jim was not in danger. But I think he is. I hope and
pray he recovers.
_Thursday_.
We sailed yesterday. It was a wonderful experience, leaving Hoboken.
Our transport and the dock looked as if they had a huge swarm of
yellow bees hanging over everything. The bees were soldiers. The
most profound emotion I ever had--except the one when you told me
you loved me--came over me as the big boat swung free of the
dock--of the good old U.S., of home. I wanted to jump off and swim
through the eddying green water to the piles and hide in them till
the boat had gone. As we backed out, pulled up tugs, and got started
down the river, my thrills increased, until we passed the Statue of
Liberty--and then I couldn't tell how I felt. One thing, I could not
see very well.... I gazed beyond the colossal statue that France
gave to the U.S.--'way across the water and the ships and the docks
toward the West that I was leaving. Feeling like mine then only
comes once to a man in his life. First I seemed to see all the vast
space, the farms, valleys, woods, deserts, rivers, and mountains
between me and my golden wheat-hills. Then I saw my home, and it was
as if I had a magnificent photograph before my very eyes. A sudden
rush of tears blinded me. Such a storm of sweetness, regret, memory!
Then at last you--_you_ as you stood before me last, the very
loveliest girl in all the world. My heart almost burst, and in the
wild, sick pain of the moment I had a strange, comforting flash of
thought that a man who could leave you must be impelled by something
great in store for him. I feel that.
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