Some minute details rise again before my eyes which were then scarcely
noticed and have remained concealed, one knows not in what hiding-place
of the memory. I see a cluster of birches whose despoiled branches are
tinted with rose. I see the crystals which sparkle at the end of a
tuft of broom which, thin and still green, marks the tracks of a fox
on the immaculate carpet, and the flight of a magpie which cries out
in the middle of the road, and this sharp cry renders the silence of
this immense horizon almost perceptible. I see some yellow and brown
sheep which are driven by a shepherd clothed in a blue blouse, wearing
a large, low, round hat, and accompanied by a red and shaggy dog with
shining yellow eyes, very near together.
Yes, I can see all this landscape, and the four persons who are
walking on the road which leads toward Fontfrède: Mlle. Largeyx, Mlle.
de Jussat, my pupil and myself. Charlotte wore an Astrakhan jacket;
a fur boa was wrapped around her neck making her head appear still
more petite and graceful under its Astrakhan toque. After the long
imprisonment in the château the keen air seemed to intoxicate her. Her
cheeks were red, her small feet plunged radiantly into the snow, where
they left their slight trace, and her eyes sparkled with delight at
the beauty of nature--a privilege of simple hearts which is never felt
when the soul has become desiccated by force of reasoning, abstract
theories and certain kinds of reading.
I walked beside her and so rapidly that we were soon far ahead of
Mlle. Largeyx, whose clogs slipped on the road. The child, sometimes
in front, sometimes behind, stopped or ran on with the vivacity of a
young animal. In the company of these two gay creatures I grew gloomy
and taciturn. Was this the nervous irritation which makes us at certain
times antipathetic to the joy which we see around us without sharing
it? Was it the half-unconscious outline of my future plan, and did
I wish to force the young girl to notice me by a kind of hostility
against her pleasure?
During the whole of this walk, I, who had formed the habit of talking
a great deal with her, scarcely responded by monosyllables to the
admiring remarks which she addressed to me, as if she wished me to
share in the pleasure of her emotions.
By brusque replies, and by silence, my bad humor became so evident that
Mlle. de Jussat, in spite of her enthusiasm, could not fail to notice
it. She glanced at me two or three times, with a question on her lips
which she did not dare to formulate, then her face became sad. Her
gayety fell little by little at contact with my sulkiness, and I could
trace upon her transparent face the passage, by which she ceased to be
sensible to the beauty of things and was conscious only of my sadness.
The moment came when she could no longer control the impression which
this sadness made upon her, and, in a voice which timidity rendered a
little stifled, she asked:
“Are you suffering. Monsieur Greslon?”
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