"I'm afraid of making any promises I mightn't be able to keep."
Man's vacillation is Fate's determination, and Miss Harden was as firm
as Fate. He felt that the fine long hands playing with the catalogue
were shaping events for him, while her eyes measured him with their
meditative gaze.
"I must risk that," she said. "I should lose more than three days in
finding a substitute, and I think you will do the work as I want it
done."
"And supposing I can't do it in time?"
"Will you do your best--that's all?"
"Certainly; whatever I do, I shall do my best. And if I fail you--"
Left unfinished, hanging in mid air, the phrase suggested the vague
phantasmal contingencies for which he could find no name.
"I am willing to take the risk."
Her phrase too was satisfying. Its generous amplitude covered him like
a cloak.
"But we haven't arranged anything about terms."
No, they had not. Was it in her adorable simplicity, or in the mere
recklessness of her youth, that she engaged him first and talked about
terms afterwards? Or did she know an honest man when she saw one? He
took his note-book and pencil and made out an estimate with the
rapidity of happy inspiration, a fantastic estimate, incredibly and
ludicrously small.
"Then," said she, "there will be your expenses."
He had not thought of that difficulty; but he soared above it, still
reckless and inspired.
"Expenses? Oh, expenses are included."
She considered the estimate with the prettiest pucker of her
meditative brows.
"I don't understand these things; but--it seems very little."
"Our usual charge."
So swiftly did the wings of his inspiration carry him into the blue
ideal, high above both verbal verity and the gross material fact.
She acquiesced, though with some reluctance. "Well, and when do you
think you can begin?"
"Whenever it's most convenient to you. I shall have to take a look
round first."
"You can do that at once."
By this time he had forgotten that whatever he might have drunk he had
eaten nothing since the dinner of last night. He had ceased to feel
faint and headachy and hungry, having reached that stage of faintness,
headache and hunger when the body sheds its weight and seems to walk
gloriously upon air, to be possessed of supernatural energy. He went
up and down library steps that were ladders, and stood perilously on
the tops of them. He walked round and round the walls, making
calculations, till the library began to swing slowly round too, and a
thin circle of grey mist swung with it. And all the time he was
obscurely aware of a delicate grey-clad figure going to and fro in the
grey mist, or seated intent at the table, doing his work. He felt that
her eyes followed him now and then.
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