He consoled himself as Petrarch had done: and opening his old vein of
poetry and bell-metal, gave some vent to his passion by writing a copy
of verses to the tune of “Such charms has Phillis!” then much in
request, and proper for the flute. He entitled it “The Forsaken
Lover's Letter to his former Sweetheart.” “When I had done,” says he,
“as I did not care that Mr. Midwinter (his master) should know of my
great disappointment, I gave the copy to Mr. Dodd, who printing the
same sold thousands of them, for which he offered me a price; but as
it was on my own proper concern, I scorned to accept of anything
except a glass of comfort or so.” If the Forsaken Lover's Lamentation
had been sung about the streets of York, Mrs. Bourne might have
listened to it without suspecting that she was the treacherous maid,
who for the sake of this world's splendour had betrayed her only sweet
jewel, left him to languish alone, and broken his heart,
Proving that none could be falser than she.
Conscience would never have whispered to her that it was lukewarm
Thomas who closed his complaint with the desperate determination
expressed in the ensuing stanza.
Now to the woods and groves I'll be ranging,
Free from all women I'll vent forth my grief:
While birds are singing and sweet notes exchanging
This pleasing concert will yield me relief.
Thus like the swan before its departing
Sings forth its elegy in melting strains,
My dying words shall move all the kind powers above
To pity my fate, the most wretched of swains.
He neither went to the woods, nor died; but entered into an engagement
with Mr. Dodd's widow to manage her printing business, being the more
willing to enter into the service of this gentlewoman since he was
disappointed of his first love. The widow was a most agreeable person,
daughter to a sea captain, and had been educated at the boarding
school at Hackney: Dodd was her second husband, and she had been left
with a child by each. “I thought her,” says Gent, “worthy of the best
of spouses; for sure there never could be a finer economist or sweeter
mother to her dear children, whom she kept exceedingly decent. I have
dined with her; but then as in reason I allowed what was fitting for
my meals, and her conversation, agreeably to her fine education,
almost wounded me with love, and at the same time commanded a becoming
reverence. What made her excellent carriage the more endearing was,
that I now must never expect to behold my first love at York: though I
heard by travellers that not only she, but her husband used to enquire
after me. Indeed I was sensible that Mr. Bourne, though a likely young
man, was not one of the most healthful persons; but far from imagining
otherwise then that he might have outlived me who then was worn to a
shadow. But, see the wonderful effects of Divine Providence in all
things!
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