The Doctor's Wife: A NovelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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The Doctor's Wife: A Novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
Adultery -- Fiction; Great Britain -- Fiction; Middle class -- Fiction; Physicians' spouses -- Fiction
"Falsehood! Oh, Roland, when I love you so dearly--so dearly and truly;
not as you love me,--with a cruel love that would bring shame and
disgrace upon me. You never can be more to me than you are now. We may
part; but there is no power on earth that can part my soul from yours,
or lessen my love. I came to you this afternoon to say good-bye for
ever, because I have heard that cruel things have been said of me by
people who do not understand my love. Ah, how should those common people
understand, when even you do not, Roland? I came to say good-bye; and
then, after to-day, my life will be finished. You know what you said
that night: 'The curtain goes down, and all is over!' I shall think of
you for ever and ever, till I die. Ah, is there any kind of death that
can ever make me forget you? but I will never come here again to see
you. I will always try to do my duty to my husband."
"Your husband!" cried Mr. Lansdell, with a strident laugh; "had we not
better leave _his_ name out of the question? Oh, Isabel!" he exclaimed,
suddenly changing his tone, "so help me Heaven, I cannot understand you.
Are you only an innocent child, after all, or the wiliest coquette that
ever lived? You must be one or the other. You speak of your husband. My
poor dear, it is too late in the day now to talk of him. You should have
thought of him when we first met; when your eyelids first drooped
beneath my gaze; when your voice first grew tremulous as you spoke my
name. From the very first you have lured me on. I am no trickster or
thief, to steal another man's property. If your heart had been your
husband's when first I met you, the beauty of an angel in a cathedral
fresco would not have been farther away from me than yours. Depend upon
it, Eve was growing tired of Eden when the serpent began to talk to her.
If you had loved your husband, Isabel, I should have bowed my head
before the threshold of your home, as I would at the entrance to a
chapel. But I saw that you did not love him; I very soon saw that you
did love, or seemed to love, me. Heaven knows how I struggled against
the temptation, and only yielded at last when my heart told me that my
love was true and honest, and worthy of the sacrifice I ask from you. I
do ask that sacrifice; boldly, as a man who is prepared to give measure
for measure. The little world to which you will say good-bye, Isabel, is
a world whose gates will close on me in the same hour. Henceforth your
life will be mine, with all its forfeitures. I am not an ambitious man,
and have long ceased to care about making any figure in a world which
has always seemed to me more or less like a show at a fair, with
clanging cymbals and brazen trumpets, and promise and protestation, and
boasting outside, and only delay and disappointment and vexation within.
I do not give up very much, therefore, but what I have I freely resign.
Come with me, Isabel, and I will take you away to the beautiful places
you have been pleased to hear me talk about.
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