The Doctor's Wife: A NovelBraddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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The Doctor's Wife: A Novel
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
Adultery -- Fiction; Great Britain -- Fiction; Middle class -- Fiction; Physicians' spouses -- Fiction
The groups of quiet people--almost all of them were women, and very few
of them were young--melted slowly into the shadowy church-porch, like
the dusky unsubstantial figures in a dioramic picture. The bells were
still ringing in the chill twilight; but the churchyard was very lonely
now; and the big solemn yew-trees looked weird and ghost-like against
the darkening grey sky. Only one long low line of pale yellow light
remained of the day that was gone! the day in which Isabel had said
farewell to Roland Lansdell! It was a real farewell; no lovers' quarrel,
wherefrom should spring that re-renewal of love so dismally associated
with the Eton Latin Grammar. It was an eternal parting: for had he not
told her to go away from him--to leave him for ever? Not being the
wicked thing for which he had mistaken her, she was nothing in the world
for him. He did not require perpetual worship; he did not want her to
retire to a convent, in order that he might enjoy himself for the rest
of his existence by looking up at her window; he did not want her to sit
beside a brazier of charcoal with her hand linked in his--and die. He
was not like that delightful Henry von Kleist, who took his Henriette to
a pleasant inn about a mile from Potsdam, supped gaily with her, and
then shot her and himself beside a lake in the neighbourhood. Mr.
Lansdell wanted nothing that was poetical or romantic, and had not even
mentioned suicide in the course of his passionate talk.
She went into the churchyard, and walked towards the little bridge upon
which she had stood with George Gilbert by her side. The Wayverne flowed
silently under the solid moss-grown arch; the wind had gone down by this
time, and there was only now and then a faint shiver of the long dark
rushes, as if the footsteps of the invisible dead, wandering in the
twilight, had stirred them. She stood on the bridge, looking down at the
quiet water. The opportunity had come now, if she really wanted to drown
herself. Happily for weak mankind, self-destruction is a matter in which
opportunity and inclination very seldom go together. The Doctor's Wife
was very miserable; but she did not feel quite prepared to take that
decisive plunge which might have put an end to her earthly troubles,
Would they hear the splash yonder in the church, if she dropped quietly
in among the rushes from the sloping bank under the shadow of the
bridge? Would they hear the water surging round her as she sank, and
wonder what the sound meant, and then go on with their prayers,
indifferent to the drowning creature, and absorbed by their devotions?
She wondered what these people were like, who kept their houses so
tidily, and went to church twice a day in Passion-week, and never fell
in love with Roland Lansdell. Long ago, in her childhood, when she went
to see a play, she had wondered about the people she met in the street;
the people who were not going to the theatre. Were they very happy? did
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