But, as time went on, her temper was not always so sweet. Indeed, it
ceased to be sweet. In his steady, rather bovine way, he loved her as
much as ever; but his love of being with her was less great, and his
pleasure in the society of others was greater, than of yore. Perhaps
if Thia had borne a child, she might have been less troubled about
the welfare of the homelanders. But this diversion and solace was not
granted. Thia’s maternal instinct had to spend itself on a community
which she could not help and did not now genuinely love, and on a
husband who did not understand her simplest thoughts and was moreover
growing fat. Her disposition suffered under the strain. One day, when
she was talking to him about the homeland, she paused with sudden
suspicion and asked him what she had said last; and he could make no
answer; and she asked him to tell her what he had been thinking about;
and he said that he had been thinking about his having slain the
dragon; and she, instead of chiding him tenderly, as she would have
done in the old days, screamed. She screamed that she would go mad
if ever again he spoke to her of that old dragon. She flung her arms
out towards the hills across the waters and said, with no lowering of
her voice, that every day, out yonder, men were slaying dragons and
thinking nothing of it, and doing their work, and not growing fat. He
asked her whether she meant that he himself was growing fat. ‘Yea,’ she
answered. He said that then indeed she was mad. Away he strode, nor
did he return at sundown; and it was late in the night before the god
retired from a cheery party of worshippers and went up to the cave,
where Thia, faintly visible in the moonlight, lay sleeping, with a look
of deep disdain on her face.
* * * * *
Sometimes Thia wondered whether in her childhood the characters and
ways of the homelanders had been as they were now. She hated to think
that they had not been perfect in those days; but she reasoned that
they could not have been: before the coming of the dragon they must
have been as they were now, and the only difference was that they had
then loved her. Thus even the memory of her bright careless early years
was embittered to her.
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