Horror tales; Nightmares -- Fiction; Short stories
"Now here is the only time that my consciousness, which guides my
waking hours, ever in any way pierces the veil of dreams. I am, in
the dream, in no way conscious that it is a dream, but, in a detached
sort of way, my other mind recognizes certain facts and passes them
on to my sleeping--shall I say 'ego'? That is to say, my personality
is for an instant truly dual and separate to an extent, as the right
and left arms are separate, while making up parts in the same entity.
My dreaming mind has no cognizance of my higher mind; for the time
being the other mind is subordinated and the subconscious mind is
in full control, to such an extent that it does not even recognize
the existence of the other. But the conscious mind, now sleeping,
is cognizant of dim thought-waves emanating from the dream mind. I
know that I have not made this entirely clear, but the fact remains
that I know that my mind, conscious and subconscious, is near to
ruin. My obsession of fear, as I stand there in my dream, is that
the serpent will raise itself and peer into the window at me. And I
know, in my dream, that if this occurs I shall go insane. And so vivid
is the impression imparted to my conscious, now sleeping mind that
the thought-waves stir the dim seas of sleep, and somehow I can feel
my sanity rocking as my sanity rocks in my dream. Back and forth it
totters and sways until the motion takes on a physical aspect and I in
my dream am swaying from side to side. Not always is the sensation the
same, but I tell you, if that horror ever raises its terrible shape
and leers at me, if I ever see the fearful thing in my dream, I shall
become stark, wild insane." There was a restless movement among the
rest.
"God! but what a prospect!" he muttered. "To be insane and forever
dreaming that same dream, night and day! But there I stand, and
centuries go by, but at last a dim gray light begins to steal through
the windows, the swishing dies away in the distance and presently a
red, haggard sun climbs the eastern sky. Then I turn about and gaze
into a mirror--and my hair has become perfectly white. I stagger to
the door and fling it wide. There is nothing in sight but a wide track
leading away down the hill through the grasslands--in the opposite
direction from that which I would take toward the coast. And with a
shriek of maniacal laughter, I dash down the hill and race across the
grasslands. I race until I drop from exhaustion, then I lie until I can
stagger up and go on.
"All day I keep this up, with superhuman effort, spurred on by the
horror behind me. And ever as I hurl myself forward on weakening legs,
ever as I lie gasping for breath, I watch the sun with a terrible
eagerness. How swiftly the sun travels when a man races it for life! A
losing race it is, as I know when I watch the sun sinking toward the
skyline, and the hills which I had hoped to gain ere sundown seemingly
as far away as ever."
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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