Suddenly she became silent, and snatched by a quick movement the distracting crochet needle from Romashov's fingers. She evidently wanted to monopolize the whole of his attention to what she now intended to say. After this she began to speak with passionate earnestness of what was at present the goal of all her thoughts and aims. "Romochka, please, try to understand me. I cannot--cannot stand this any longer. To remain here is to deteriorate. To become a 'lady of the regiment,' to attend your rowdy _soirées_, to talk scandal and intrigue, to get into tempers every day, and wear out one's nerves over the housekeeping, money and carriage bills, to serve in turn, according to precedency, on ladies' committees and benevolent associations, to play whist, to--no, enough of this. You say that our home is comfortable and charming. But just examine this _bourgeois_ happiness. These eternal embroideries and laces; these dreadful clothes which I have altered and modernized God knows how often; this vulgar, 'loud'-coloured sofa rug composed of rags from every spot on earth--all this has been hateful and intolerable to me. Don't you understand, my dear Romochka, that it is society--real society--that I want, with brilliant drawing-rooms, witty conversation, music, flirtation, homage. As you are well aware, our good Volodya is not one to set the Thames on fire, but he is a brave, honourable, and industrious fellow. If he can only gain admission to the Staff College I swear to procure him a brilliant career. I am a good linguist; I can hold my own in any society whatever; I possess--I don't know how to express it--a certain flexibility of mind or spirit that helps me to hold my own, to adapt myself everywhere. Finally, Romochka, look at me, gaze at me carefully. Am I, as a human being, so uninteresting? Am I, as a woman, so devoid of all charms that I deserve to be doomed to stay and be soured in this hateful place, in this awful hole which has no place on the map?" She suddenly covered her face with her handkerchief, and burst into tears of self-pity and wounded pride. Nikoläiev sprang from his chair and hastened, troubled and distracted, to his wife; but Shurochka had already succeeded in regaining her self-control and took her handkerchief away from her face. There were no tears in her eyes now, but the glint of wrath and passion had not yet died out of them. "It is all right, Volodya. Dear, it is nothing." She pushed him nervously away. Immediately afterwards she turned with a little laugh to Romashov, and whilst she was again snatching the thread from him, she said to him coquettishly: "Answer me candidly, you clumsy thing, am I pretty or not? Remember, though, it is the height of impoliteness not to pay a woman the compliment she wants." "Shurochka, you ought to be ashamed of yourself!" exclaimed Nikoläiev reprovingly, from his seat at the writing-table.