He had quite got the better of his egoism, but he by no means regretted
his outburst.
"Do you claim to stand outside the ranks of the clergy?" he asked.
"Do you claim to stand outside the ranks of the scientists?"
"Oh, dear, no. And now--you?"
Chichester said nothing for a moment. Then, lifting up his head, and
gazing at the professor with a sort of sternness of determination, he
said:
"Remember this! You yourself told me that in a crowd of a thousand you
must have fixed your attention on me."
For a moment the professor had it in his mind to say that this statement
of his had been a lie invented to make an impression on Chichester. But
he resisted the temptation to score--and lose. He preferred not to score,
and to win, if possible.
"I did," he said.
"Could this be so if I were like other men, other clergymen?"
"Well, then, what is the mighty difference between you and your reverend
brethren--between you, let us say, and your rector, Mr. Harding?"
Very casually and jerkily the professor threw out this question.
Not casually did Chichester receive it. He moved almost like a man who
had been unexpectedly struck, then seemed to recover himself, and to
nerve himself for some ordeal. Leaning forward, and holding the edge of
the table with one hand, he said:
"How well do you know Mr. Harding?"
"Pretty well. Not intimately."
"You have seen him since he--altered?"
"I saw him only the other day when I was at a specialist's in Harley
Street."
"A specialist's?"
"For nervous dyspepsia."
Again the look of contempt flickered over Chichester's face.
"Do you think the alteration in Mr. Harding may be due to nervous
dyspepsia?"
"Probably. There are few maladies that so sap the self-confidence of a
man."
Chichester laughed.
For the first time since he had entered the little room the professor
felt a cold sensation of creeping uneasiness.
"Apparently you don't agree with me," he said.
"I am not a doctor, and I know very little about that matter."
"Then I'm bound to say I don't know what you find to laugh at."
"For a man who has spent so much time in psychical research you seem to
have a rather material outlook upon--"
"Mr. Harding?"
"And all that he represents."
"Suppose we stick to Mr. Harding," said the professor, grittily. "He is
typical enough, even if you are not."
"In what respect do you consider Mr. Harding typical?"
"I am speaking of the Harding before the fall into the abysses of nervous
dyspepsia."
"Very well. In what respects was Mr. Harding typical?"
"In the sublime self-confidence with which he proclaimed as facts, things
that have never been proved to be facts."
"Do men want facts?" said Chichester, almost as one speaking alone to
himself.
"I do. I want nothing else. Possibly Mr.
Harding had none to give me. I don't blame
him."
"Perhaps it is a greater thing to give men faith than to give them
facts."
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