"For a long time this condition of things continued, and I was happy in
it. Probably it might have continued till now, if--if that accursed idea
had not come to Marcus Harding."
Again Chichester paused. In speaking he had evidently become gradually
less aware of his companion's presence and personality. His subject
had gripped him. Memory had grown warm within him. He lived in the days
that were past.
"That accursed idea," he repeated slowly, "to use me as his tool in an
endeavor to break down the barrier which divides men from the other
world.
"As I told you, we began to sit secretly. Marcus Harding wished me to
fall into the entranced condition. I did not know this at first, so at
first I did not consciously resist his desire. He had told me a lie. He
had told me that he desired only one thing in our sittings, to give to
me something of the will power that made him a force in the world. He had
declared that this was possible. I believed him unquestioningly. I
thought he was trying to send some of his power into me. Soon I felt that
he was succeeding in this supposed endeavor. Soon I felt that a strange
new power was filtering into me."
Chichester fixed his eyes on Stepton as he said the last words, and
seemed to emerge from his former condition of self-absorption.
"You have sat often. Have you ever felt such a sensation? It is like
growth," he said.
"When one first begins to sit at séances, one is apt to imagine all sorts
of things in the darkness," returned Stepton. "I dare say I did, like
other folk."
"I understand," said Chichester, with a sort of strange condescension.
"You think I was merely the victim of absurdity. The sense of this coming
of power grew slowly, but steadily, within me. And presently it was
complicated by another development, which involved--or began to involve,
let me say at this point--my companion, Marcus Harding. I think I ought
to tell you that in beginning the sittings I had had certain doubts,
which were swept away by my admiration of, and faith in, my rector.
Hitherto I had always thought that our human knowledge was deliberately
limited by God, and that it was very wrong to strive to know too much.
The man of science no doubt believes that it is impossible to know too
much; but I have thought that many great truths are kept from us because
we are not yet in a condition properly to understand them. I had,
therefore, begun these practices with a certain tremor, and possibly a
certain feeling of resistance, in the depths of my soul. As I felt the
power coming to me I had put away my fears. They did not return. Yet
surely the new development within me, of which I now became aware, was
connected with those fears, however subtly. It was a sensation almost of
hostility directed against Marcus Harding."
"Ah, now!" ejaculated the professor, as if in despite of himself. "And
where's the connection you speak of?"
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