Children -- Fiction; Fantasy fiction; Paranormal fiction
And, now in his room, before the candles were lighted, he was standing
by the open window, thinking it all over. Of women, of course, he knew
little or nothing; to him they were all charming, some of them
wonderful; and he was not conscious that his point of view might be
considered by a man of the world—of the world that is little, sordid,
matter-of-fact—distinctly humorous. At forty-five he believed in women
just as he had believed in them at twenty, only more so, for nothing had
ever entered his experience to trouble an exquisite picture in his mind.
They stood nearer to God than men did, he felt, and the depravity of
really bad women he explained by the fact that when they did fall they
fell farther. The sex-fever, so far as he was concerned, had never
mounted to his brain to obscure his vision.
He only knew—and knew it with a sacred wonder that was akin to
worship—that women, like the angels, were beyond his reach and beyond
his understanding. Comely they all were to him. He looked up to them in
his thoughts, not for their reason or strength, but for the subtlety of
their intuition, their power of sacrifice, and last but not least, for
the beauty and grace of their mere presence in a world that was so often
ugly and unclean.
‘The flame—the lamp—the glory—whatever it may be called—keeps alight in
their faces,’ he loved to say to himself, ‘almost to the end. With men
it is gone at thirty—often at twenty.’
And his sister, for all her light hold on life, and the strain in her
that in his simplicity he regarded as rather ‘worldly,’ was no exception
to the rule. He thought her entirely good and wonderful, and, perhaps,
so far as she went, he was not too egregiously mistaken. He looked for
the best in everybody, and so, of course, found it.
‘Only she will never make much of me, or I of her, I’m afraid,’ he
thought as he leaned out of the window, watching the scented darkness.
‘We shall get along best by leaving each other alone and being
affectionate, so to speak, from a distance.’
And, indeed, so far he had escaped the manifold seductions by which
Nature seeks to attain her great object of perpetuating the race. As a
potential father of many sons he was of course an object of legitimate
prey; but his forest life had obviated all that; his whole forces had
turned inwards for the creation of the poet’s visions, and Nature in
this respect, he believed, had passed him by. So far as he was aware
there was no desire in him to come forth and perform a belated duty to
the world by increasing its population. It was the first time any one
had even suggested to him that he should consider such a matter, and the
mere idea made him smile.
Gradually, however, these thoughts cleared away, and he turned to other
things he deemed more important.
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