Let us choose another convenient example. I see how men are fretted in
dark superstition by a swarm of ghosts. If to the extent of my powers I
let a bit of daylight fall in on the nocturnal spookery, is it
perchance because love to you inspires this in me? Do I write out of
love to men? No, I write because I want to procure for _my_ thoughts an
existence in the world; and, even if I foresaw that these thoughts would
deprive you of your rest and your peace, even if I saw the bloodiest
wars and the fall of many generations springing up from this seed of
thought,--I would nevertheless scatter it. Do with it what you will and
can, that is your affair and does not trouble me. You will perhaps have
only trouble, combat, and death from it, very few will draw joy from it.
If your weal lay at my heart, I should act as the church did in
withholding the Bible from the laity, or Christian governments, which
make it a sacred duty for themselves to "protect the common people from
bad books."
But not only not for your sake, not even for truth's sake either do I
speak out what I think. No--
I sing as the bird sings
That on the bough alights;
The song that from me springs
Is pay that well requites.
I sing because--I am a singer. But I _use_[201] you for it because
I--need[202] ears.
Where the world comes in my way--and it comes in my way everywhere--I
consume it to quiet the hunger of my egoism. For me you are nothing
but--my food, even as I too am fed upon and turned to use by you. We
have only one relation to each other, that of _usableness_, of utility,
of use. We owe _each other_ nothing, for what I seem to owe you I owe
at most to myself. If I show you a cheery air in order to cheer you
likewise, then your cheeriness is of consequence to _me_, and my air
serves _my_ wish; to a thousand others, whom I do not aim to cheer, I do
not show it.
* * * * *
One has to be educated up to that love which founds itself on the
"essence of man," or, in the ecclesiastical and moral period, lies upon
us as a "commandment." In what fashion moral influence, the chief
ingredient of our education, seeks to regulate the intercourse of men
shall here be looked at with egoistic eyes in one example at least.
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