So the bright, monotonous days filed by, always sunny, always warm,
till it seemed as if they were to go on thus forever, glide into a
winter which was still spring. An excursion to Sacramento, a big day's
clean up, were their excitements. They taught little Bob to help at
the rocker, and the women sat by the cabin door sewing, long periods of
silence broken by moments of desultory talk. Susan had grown much
quieter. She would sit with idle hands watching the shifting lights
and the remoter hills turning from the afternoon's blue to the rich
purple of twilight. Bella said she was lazy, and urged industry and
the need of speed in the preparation of the new wardrobe. She laughed
indolently and said, time enough later on. She had grown indifferent
about her looks--her hair hanging elfish round her ears, her blouse
unfastened at the throat, the new boots Low had brought her from
Sacramento unworn in the cabin corner, her feet clothed in the ragged
moccasins he had taught her to make.
In the evening she sat on a blanket on the cabin floor, blinking
sleepily at the flames. Internally she brimmed with a level content.
Life was coming to the flood with her, her being gathering itself for
its ultimate expression. All the curiosity and interest she had once
turned out to the multiple forms and claims of the world were now
concentrated on the two lives between which hers stood. She was the
primitive woman, a mechanism of elemental instincts, moving up an
incline of progressive passions. The love of her father had filled her
youth, and that had given way to the love of her mate, which in time
would dim before the love of her child. Outside these phases of a
governing prepossession--filial, conjugal, maternal--she knew nothing,
felt nothing, and could see nothing.
Low, at first, had brooded over her with an almost ferocious
tenderness. Had she demanded a removal to the town he would have given
way. He would have acceded to anything she asked, but she asked
nothing. As the time passed her demands of him, even to his help in
small matters of the household, grew less. A slight, inscrutable
change had come over her: she was less responsive, often held him with
an eye whose blankness told of inner imaginings, when he spoke made no
answer, concentrated in her reverie. When he watched her withdrawn in
these dreams, or in a sudden attack of industry, fashioning small
garments from her hoarded store of best clothes, he felt an alienation
in her, and he realized with a start of alarmed divination that the
child would take a part of what had been his, steal from him something
of that blind devotion in the eternal possession of which he had
thought to find solace.
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