It was a shock that roused him to a scared scrutiny of the future. He
put questions to her for the purpose of drawing out her ideas, and her
answers showed that all her thoughts and plans were gathering round the
welfare of her baby. Her desire for its good was to end her
unresisting subservience to him. She was thinking already of better
things. Ambitions were awakened that would carry her out of the
solitudes, where he felt himself at rest, back to the world where she
would struggle to make a place for the child she had never wanted for
herself.
"We'll take him to San Francisco soon"--it was always "him" in her
speculations--"We can't keep him here."
"Why not?" he asked. "Look at Bella's children. Could anything be
healthier and happier?"
"Bella's children are different. Bella's different. She doesn't know
anything better, she doesn't care. To have them well fed and healthy
is enough for her. _We're_ not like that. _Our_ child's going to have
everything."
"You're content enough here by yourself and you're a different sort to
Bella."
"For myself!" she gave a shrug. "I don't care any more than Bella
does. But for my child--my son--I want everything. Want him a
gentleman like his ancestors, French and American"--she gave his arm a
propitiating squeeze for she knew he disliked this kind of talk--"want
him to be educated like my father, and know everything, and have a
profession."
"You're looking far ahead."
"Years and years ahead," and then with deprecating eyes and
irrepressible laughter, "Now don't say I'm foolish, but sometimes I
think of him getting married and the kind of girl I'll choose for
him--not stupid like me, but one who's good and beautiful and knows all
about literature and geography and science. The finest girl in the
world, and I'll find her for him."
He didn't laugh, instead he looked sulkily thoughtful:
"And where will we get the money to do all this?"
"We'll make it. We have a good deal now. Daddy John told me the other
day he thought we had nearly ten thousand dollars in dust beside what
my father left. That will be plenty to begin on, and you can go into
business down on the coast. They told Daddy John at the Fort there
would be hundreds and thousands of people coming in next spring.
They'll build towns, make Sacramento and San Francisco big places with
lots going on. We can settle in whichever seems the most thriving and
get back into the kind of life where we belong."
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