"At any rate older than myself. We had met in Athens when we still were young. At that time he was one of the school of Plato and the most zealous, nay, perhaps the most gifted of us all." "How came such a man among the plague-stricken people of Besa? Is he become a physician?" "No. But at Athens he sought fervently and eagerly for the truth, and now he asserts that he has found it." "Here, among the Egyptians?" "In Alexandria among the Christians." "And the lame girl who accompanied the philosopher--does she too believe in the crucified God?" "Yes. She is a sick-nurse or something of the kind. Indeed there is something grand in the ecstatic craze of these people." "Is it true that they worship an ass and a dove?" "Nonsense!" "I did not want to believe it; and at any rate they are kind, and succor all who suffer, even strangers who do not belong to their sect." "How do you know?" "One hears a great deal about them in Alexandria." "Alas! alas!--I never persecute an imaginary foe, as such I reckon the creeds and ideas of other men; still, I cannot but ask myself whether it can add to the prosperity of the state when citizens cease to struggle against the pressure and necessity of life and console themselves for them instead, by the hope of visionary happiness in another world which perhaps only exists in the fancy of those who believe in it." "I should wish that life might end with death," said Antinous thoughtfully; "and yet--" "Well?" "If I were sure that in that other world I should find those I long to see again, then I might long for a future life." "And would you really like, throughout all eternity, to push and struggle in the crowd of old acquaintances which death does not diminish but rather multiplies?" "Nay, not that--but I should like to be permitted to live for ever with a few chosen friends." "And should I be one of them?" "Yes--indeed," cried Antinous warmly and pressing his lips to Hadrian's hand. "I was sure of it--but even with the promise of never being obliged to part with you my darling, I would never sacrifice the only privilege which man enjoys above the immortals." "What privilege can you mean?" "The right of withdrawing from the ranks of the living as soon as annihilation seems more endurable than existence and I choose to call death to release me." "The gods, it is true, cannot die." "And the Christians only to link a new life on to death." "But a fairer and a happier than this on earth." They say it is a life of bliss. But the mother of this everlasting life is the ineradicable love of existence in even the most wretched of our race, and hope is its father. They believe in a complete freedom from suffering in that other world because He whom they call their Redeemer, the crucified Christ, has saved them from all sufferings by His death." "And can a man take upon him the sufferings of others, think you, like a garment or a burden?"