Jennie was thrown back on what Bob had repeated so often: "You’re the
other half of me; I’m the other half of you." Whether it came through
some impulse of affinity, or whether it was the chance of
conscientiously living together, Jennie wasn’t sure; but it began to
seem as if in the mere fact of marriage there was a naturally unifying
principle. To go against it was, in a measure, to go against the forces
of the universe; and though she had only been nominally married to Bob,
she was preparing to go against it. Had she been a rebel at heart, it
would have been easier; but she was docile, loving, eager to be loved,
with nothing more daring in her soul than the wish to live at peace with
the world she saw round her.
Bob’s letters were disturbing, too. In the way of a happy future, he
took everything for granted. He reasoned as if, now that they had gone
through a certain form together and signed it with a parson’s name, she
had no more liberty of will than a woman in a harem. Little as she was
rebellious, she rebelled against that, preferring an element of chance
in her love to a love in which there was no choice. Bob wrote as if her
love was of no importance, as if he could love enough for two—did, in
fact, love enough for two—so that the whole need of loving was taken off
her hands.
I feel, as if my love was the air and you were a plant to grow
in it. It’s the sunshine to which your leaves and blossoms will
only have to turn.
"That’s all very well for him," she said, falling back with a grimace on
the language Gussie brought home with her from vaudeville shows, "but I
ain’t no blooming plant."
Hubert’s love, she thought at other times, was like a rare and precious
cordial, of which a few drops carefully doled out ran like fire through
the veins. Bob’s was a rushing torrent which, without saying with your
leave or by your leave, carried you away. She preferred the cordial, of
which you could take up the glass and put it down according as you
wanted less or more; but, on the other hand, when there was a flood
which, without asking your permission, poured all over you, what were
you to do? She knew what she meant to do; but it was the difficulty of
doing it and facing that terrific tide which made her stand aghast. If
Bob would only let her alone....
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