Bob advanced slowly, examining the numbers of the houses, many of which
were lacking. Seventeen, Fifteen, and Thirteen were, however, over their
doors, so that he was duly prepared for Eleven.
"I’ll know by the first look in his eyes," she kept saying to herself,
"whether he’s sorry he married me or not."
As he passed number Thirteen she got up from the arm of the big chair on
which she had been perched, and found she could hardly stand. It was all
she could do to creep into the entry and open the front door. When he
turned into the little cement strip leading up to it, she shrank back
into the shadow. He was abreast of the two hydrangea trees before he saw
her. When he did so he stood still. It seemed to her that an
unreckonable time went by before a smile stole to his lips, and when it
did it was wavering, flickering, more poignant than no smile at all.
Her inner comment was: "Yes; he’s sorry. Now I know." Pride, another new
force in her character, made of her a woman with a will, as she added,
"I must help him to get out of it—somehow."
But Pansy, sensing a nimbus of good will as imperceptible to Jennie as
the pervasive scent of the summer, lilted down the steps, raised her
forepaws against his shin, and gazed up into his face adoringly.
CHAPTER XXIII
It was a help to Bob Collingham that his first glance at Jennie decided
his attitude for the near future. Whatever his doubts and questionings,
he could add nothing to the trials she had to face. Whatever she had
done, whatever the net of circumstances in which she had been caught, he
must act as if, as far as he himself was concerned, he was satisfied.
Whether she loved him or whether she didn’t, or whether her duties as a
model had or had not made her indifferent to considerations to which
most people were sensitive, were questions that must be postponed.
This conviction, which flashed on him as he saw her shrinking in the
entry, was confirmed when he felt her crumpled in his arms, relieved by
his presence and yet frightened by the new conditions which it wrought.
It was the same dependent but rebellious little Jennie, clinging to him
and yet trying to slip away from him. It was as if she begged for a love
which the perversity of her tortured little heart wouldn’t allow her to
accept. Very well then; he must measure it out to her a little at a
time, as you fed a sick person or a starving man, till she got used to
it. When she was stronger and he more at peace with himself, they could
tackle the personal problems between them.
So, when she struggled from his arms, he let her go, following her into
the living-room.
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