Abashed by the presence of his companion, whose voice of thunder
expressed to him his own thoughts, as lightning expresses the will of
Heaven, the boy was satisfied to gaze at the stars with a lover’s eyes.
Overwhelmed by a luxury of sentiment, which weighed on his heart, he
stood there timid and weak--a midge in the sunbeams. Sigier’s discourse
had proved to them the mysteries of the spiritual world; the tall, old
man was to invest them with glory; the lad felt them in himself,
though he could in no way express them. The three represented in living
embodiment Science, Poetry, and Feeling.
On going into the house, the Exile shut himself into his room, lighted
the inspiring lamp, and gave himself over to the ruthless demon of Work,
seeking words of the silence and ideas of the night. Godefroid sat down
in his window sill, by turns gazing at the moon reflected in the water,
and studying the mysteries of the sky. Lost in one of the trances that
were frequent to him, he traveled from sphere to sphere, from vision to
vision, listening for obscure rustlings and the voices of angels, and
believing that he heard them; seeing, or fancying that he saw, a divine
radiance in which he lost himself; striving to attain the far-away goal,
the source of all light, the fount of all harmony.
Presently the vast clamor of Paris, brought down on the current, was
hushed; lights were extinguished one by one in the houses; silence
spread over all; and the huge city slept like a tired giant.
Midnight struck. The least noise, the fall of a leaf, or the flight of
a jackdaw changing its perching-place among the pinnacles of Notre-Dame,
would have been enough to bring the stranger’s mind to earth again, to
have made the youth drop from the celestial heights to which his soul
had soared on the wings of rapture.
And then the old man heard with dismay a groan mingling with the sound
of a heavy fall--the fall, as his experienced ear assured him, of a dead
body. He hastened into Godefroid’s room, and saw him lying in a heap
with a long rope tight round his neck, the end meandering over the
floor.
When he had untied it, the poor lad opened his eyes.
“Where am I?” he asked, with a hopeful gleam.
“In your own room,” said the elder man, looking with surprise at
Godefroid’s neck, and at the nail to which the cord had been tied, and
which was still in the knot.
“In heaven?” said the boy, in a voice of music.
“No; on earth!”
Godefroid rose and walked along the path of light traced on the floor
by the moon through the window, which stood open; he saw the rippling
Seine, the willows and plants on the island. A misty atmosphere hung
over the waters like a smokey floor.
On seeing the view, to him so heartbreaking, he folded his hands over
his bosom, and stood in an attitude of despair; the Exile came up to him
with astonishment on his face.
“You meant to kill yourself?” he asked.
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