With the proud it is ever a question whether to spoil the Egyptians, or
to fling back even the best-earned wages, payable by Egyptians, full in
the said Egyptians' face. For the firm of Barking Brothers & Barking,
in the abstract, Iglesias had the loyalty of long-established habit. It
had been as the rising tide, setting the ship of his fate and fortune
honourably afloat in the dismal days of that early stranding. Its
service had eaten up the best years of his life, it is true. But, even
in so doing, by mere force of constant association, the interests of
the great banking house had come to be his own, its schemes and secrets
his excitement, its successes his satisfaction. Fortunately the human
mind is so constituted that it is possible to have an esteem, amounting
to enthusiasm, for a body corporate, while entertaining but scanty
admiration for the individuals of whom that body is
composed--fortunately indeed, since otherwise what government, secular
or sacred, would long continue to subsist? Hence, to Iglesias, this
matter of the pension was decidedly difficult. Pride said, "This man,
Abel Barking has been offensive; both he and his nephew have been
ungrateful; reject it with contempt." Justice said, "You have no
quarrel with the firm as a whole; accept it." Common sense, pricked up
by anger, said, "Claim your own, take every brass farthing of it."
While personal dignity, winding up the case, admonished, "By no means
give yourself away. Make no impetuous demonstration. Go home and think
it quietly over." And with the advice of personal dignity Mr. Iglesias
fell in.
Yet he was still very sore, the heat of anger past, but the smart of it
remaining, when he journeyed back from the city later in the day. And
not only that after-smart, but a perplexity held him. For two strange
faces had looked into his during the last few hours--those of
Loneliness and Freedom. He had taken for granted, in a general sort of
way, that such personages existed and exercised a certain jurisdiction
in human affairs. But in all the course of his laborious life they had
never before come close, personally claiming him. He had had no time
for them. But they are patient, they only wait. They had time for
him--plenty of it. Suddenly he understood that; and it perplexed him,
for his estimate of his own importance was modest. He even felt
apologetic towards them, as one at whose door distinguished guests
alight for whose entertainment he has made no adequate provision. He
was embarrassed, his sense of hospitality reproaching him.
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