Fortunately unwonted exercise and the pure invigorating atmosphere
tended to generate placidity, and agreeable harmony of the mental and
physical being. It followed that active annoyance was short-lived. For
a minute or two Mr. Iglesias loitered, listening to the moving music of
the unseen game. Then, walking onward to the end of the enclosure,
where the palings turn away sharply at the left, he crossed the road
and made for a wooden bench just there amiably presenting itself. It
was pleasant to rest. The walk had been a long one; but it now appeared
to him that the labour of it had not been wholly in vain. For around
him stretched a breezy common, broken by straggling bramble and furze
brakes, and dotted with hawthorn bushes, upon the topmost branches of
which the crowded pinkish-white blossoms still lingered. From one to
another small birds flitted with a pretty dipping flight, uttering
quick detached notes as in merry question and answer. Through the rough
turf the bracken pushed upward, uncurling sturdy croziers of brownish
green. Away to the right, beyond the railway line, rose the densely
wooded slopes of Roehampton and Sheen; while, against the purple-green
gloom of them, the home signals of Barnes Station--hard white lines and
angles tipped with scarlet and black--stood out in high relief like the
gigantic characters of some strange alphabet. Down the wide road motors
ground and snorted; and carriages moved slowly, two abreast, the
menservants sitting at ease, talking and smoking while waiting to take
up at the police-guarded gate, back there towards the heat and smoke of
London, when the polo match should be played out.
But immediately London, the heat, and smoke, and raucous voice of it,
seemed far enough away, the wholesome charm of the country very
present. For a while Dominic Iglesias yielded himself up to it.
Receptive, quiescent, contented, he basked in the sunshine, his mind
vacant of definite thought. But for a while only. For as physical
fatigue wore off, definite thought returned; and with it the sense of
his own loneliness, the oppression of a future empty of work, the
bitterness of this enhanced by the little disappointment he had lately
suffered. He leaned forward, his hands clasped between his knees,
looking at the bracken croziers pushing bravely upward through the
rough turf to air and light. Even these blind and speechless things
worked, in a sense, fulfilling the law of their existence. He went back
on the dream of last night, on his own childhood, the happiness, yet
haunting unspoken anxiety of it, his father's fanaticism, fierce
revolutionary propaganda, and mysteriously uncertain fate.
"And to think that was the pit out of which I, of all men, was digged!"
he said to himself. "Have I done something to restore the family
balance in respect of right reason, or is the shame of incapacity upon
me? Have I sacrificed myself, or cowardly have I merely shirked living?
Heaven knows--I don't, only----"
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