Then she and Alan turned their backs to the sunset, and drove along the
bleak high-road toward Sedgehill, where the reflection of the
blast-furnaces--that weird aurora borealis of the Black Country--was
already beginning to pulsate against the darkening sky. And here again
Elisabeth realized that for her the old things had passed away, and all
things had become new. She felt that her childish dream was true, and
that the crimson light was indeed a pillar of fire showing that the Lord
was in the midst of His people; but she went further now than she had
gone in her day-dreams, and knew that all the lights and shadows of life
are but pillars of cloud and of fire, forthtelling the same truth to all
who have seeing eyes and understanding hearts.
Suddenly the silence was broken by Alan. "I have been thinking about you
during the service, and building all sorts of castles in the air which
you and I are going to inhabit together. But we must not let the old
faiths hamper us, Elisabeth; if we do, our powers will be impaired by
prejudices, and our usefulness will be limited by traditions."
"I have something to say to you," Elisabeth replied, and her eyes shone
like stars in the twilight; "you won't understand it, but I must say it
all the same. In church to-night, for the first time in my life, I heard
God speaking to me; and I found out that religion is no string of
dogmas, but just His calling us by name."
Tremaine looked at her pityingly. "You are overtired and overwrought by
the heat, and the excitement of the sermon has been too much for you.
But you will be all right again to-morrow, never fear."
"I knew you wouldn't understand, and I can't explain it to you; but it
has suddenly all become quite clear to me--all the things that I have
puzzled over since I was a little child; and I know now that religion is
not our attitude toward God, but His attitude toward us."
"Why, Elisabeth, you are saying over again all the old formulas that you
and I have refuted so often."
"I know I am; but I never really believed in them till now. I can't
argue with you, Alan--I'm not clever enough--and besides, the best
things in the world can never be proved by argument. But I want you to
understand that the Power which you call Christianity is stronger than
human wills, or human strength, or even human love; and now that it has
once laid hold upon me, it will never let me go."
Alan's face grew pale with anger. "I see; your old associations have
been too strong for you."
"It isn't my old associations, or my early training, or anything
belonging to me. It isn't me at all. It is just His Voice calling me.
Can't you understand, Alan? It is not I who am doing it all--it is He."
There was a short silence, and then Tremaine said--
"But I thought you loved me?"
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