The Fashionable Adventures of Joshua Craig: A NovelPhillips, David Graham
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The Fashionable Adventures of Joshua Craig: A Novel
Phillips, David Graham
Adventure stories; Fiction
"I am paying you the compliment of frankness. I am appealing to your
intelligence, where a less intelligent man and one that knew you less
would try to gain his point by chicane, flattery, deception."
"Yes--it is a compliment," she answered. "It was stupid of me to sneer
at your frankness."
A long silence. He lighted a cigarette, smoked it with deliberation
foreign to his usual self but characteristic of him when he was closely
and intensely engaged; for he was like a thoroughbred that is all fret
and champ and pawing and caper until the race is on, when he at once
settles down into a calm, steady stride, with all the surplus nervous
energy applied directly and intelligently to the work in hand. She was
not looking at him, but she was feeling him in every atom of her body,
was feeling the power, the inevitableness of the man. He angered her,
made her feel weak, a helpless thing, at his mercy. True, it was his
logic that was convincing her, not his magnetic and masterful will; but
somehow the two seemed one. Never had he been so repellent, never had
she felt so hostile to him.
"I will marry you," she finally said. "But I must tell you that I do not
love you--or even like you. The reverse."
His face, of the large, hewn features, with their somehow pathetic
traces of the struggles and sorrows of his rise, grew strange, almost
terrible. "Do you mean that?" he said, turning slowly toward her.
She quickly shifted her eyes, in which her dislike was showing, shifted
them before he could possibly have seen. And she tried in vain to force
past her lips the words which she believed to be the truth, the words
his pathetic, powerful face told her would end everything. Yes, she knew
he would not marry her if she told him the truth about her feelings.
"Do you mean that?" he repeated, stern and sharp, yet sad, wistfully
sad, too.
"I don't know what I mean," she cried, desperately afraid of him, afraid
of the visions the idea of not marrying him conjured. "I don't know what
I mean," she repeated. "You fill me with a kind of--of--horror. You draw
me into your grasp in spite of myself--like a whirlpool--and rouse all
my instinct to try and save myself. Sometimes that desire becomes a
positive frenzy."
He laughed complacently. "That is love," said he.
She did not resent his tone or dispute his verdict externally. "If it is
love," replied she evenly, "then never did love wear so strange, so
dreadful a disguise."
He laid his talon-hand, hardened and misshapen by manual labor, but if
ugly, then ugly with the majesty of the twisted, tempest-defying oak,
over hers. "Believe me, Margaret, you love me. You have loved me all
along.... And I you."
"Don't deceive yourself," she felt bound to say, "I certainly do not
love you if love has any of its generally accepted meanings."
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