“Too late!” he cried. “O Heaven! to think my own eyes should be the
witness of my own eternal shame and--hers!”
His head fell on his arms. He was as one dazed and stunned by the
consciousness of misery undreamt of, despite those cold and silent
years.
Moment after moment passed. One hour and then another dropped into the
gulf of time that is no more. Still he never stirred. Consciousness of
anything besides his own misery--besides the living recognition of his
own shame--was dead within him; dead as youth was dead, and hope, and
truth, and all things fair and sweet in life--slain by a woman’s hand.
* * * * *
The dawn was brightening into daylight as at last Lord Francis roused
himself from his long stupor.
“What had happened?” he thought confusedly. “Had he been ill? Had he
done anything?”
A hideous dread seized and appalled him. In those brief hours he seemed
to have lived a lifetime.
“Why did I not kill him?” he muttered, lifting his haggard young face
up to the faint rose light that filtered through the curtains. “Kill
him! aye, and in her arms--kill him and her too! Heaven!” a strange,
hoarse laugh escaped him.
“I shall go mad if I stay here--under the same roof with them.”
He began to move about confusedly, putting things together, and tossing
his clothes into his portmanteau. He was possessed but by one idea--to
leave a place made hateful by this discovery, to get away from these
men and women, with their jeering tongues and malicious smiles, who all
guessed or knew of his disgrace. It had been so public, so shameless.
She had summoned this man to her side. She had flaunted her preference
for him before his very face, and now----
He cursed her in his heart, as still, with fevered haste and strange,
impetuous movements, he gathered together his few possessions. Then
he locked his box and wrote a hurried note to the manager of the
hotel, inclosing a check and stating that the portmanteau would be
sent for later on. A hurried glance around--a glance which passed
over the letter he had written but a few brief hours before. It lay
where it had fallen from his hand when he sank into the chair by his
writing-table--lay there so innocent, yet so fraught with power to work
remorse or retribution in days that were to come.
The gray light of the early dawn gleamed like a pale phosphorescence
over the shadowy corridor, and lit with spectral mystery the white
statue and the dusky palms. He shuddered as his eyes fell on them. How
significant they had become.
Then, with a smothered oath that breathed vengeance for the future, he
rushed down the staircase and past the sleeping porter in the entrance
hall, and in another moment was standing in the fresh, sweet atmosphere
of life and light that God and Nature have so freely given to the
thankless, sated eyes of men.
* * * * *
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