The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
Jean was putting M. Loigny into a victoria which he had fetched for him
in the town. The old gentleman was wearing a frock-coat, a silk stock
wound several times round his neck in the old-fashioned way, pearl-grey
gloves, and carrying a stick with a silver knob.
“I feel so strange in this get-up,” he complained, thinking regretfully
of his gardening-clothes. And he gave several orders about his rose
bushes as if he were setting out on a long journey.
Jean tried to reassure him.
“Above all things,” he said finally, “do not forget what you are going
for.”
“As if I should!” the little man retorted energetically. “Even if my
loveliest flowers should fade in my absence I will satisfy you.”
M. Loigny was going to Le Maupas to ask Madame Guibert for her
daughter’s hand on behalf of his nephew. When the carriage had
disappeared round the road, Jean, impatient and agitated, instead of
going back to Rose Villa, had slowly followed the same road. Thus he
would perhaps meet his ambassador returning and perhaps would have time
in the evening to go up himself to the house and speak alone to her
who was to be his bride. He gazed questioningly at the sun, which was
slowly sinking towards Mount Lépine.
“These July days are the longest of all,” he said to himself, looking
for encouragement in his project.
After the evening at Aix the young man had searched his heart. He
loved Paule for her courage and pride; and also for that mysterious
attraction exercised on us by the features of the face, the color of
the eyes, the mass of the hair, the carriage of the body, the matchless
grace of a woman in whom we foresee the promise of a secure and happy
future for ourselves--or at least a delicious torment of our soul. He
could feel within him the approval of all his ancestry in the past,
whose noble traditions he meant to carry on successfully. This sensible
young girl with the eyes of flame inspired a tender love in his heart;
above all she incited him to seek the true end of human existence,
which is not to set up one’s own welfare as one’s object, but, striving
valiantly and unselfishly, to make oneself the link between the
generations past and those to come. Where could he find a worthier
companion, a stronger and a surer one who could give better counsel?
Paule had grown like a plant whose roots drew their nourishment from
fertile soil. Her family was the guarantee of her virtue. It had only
needed a little sunshine for her to attain her full development. Would
not love bring her warmth and light? And what joy to see her grow and
blossom and to feel oneself a little the cause of it, to give back to
her the lost days of a cruelly harassed youth, fled almost before she
had time to note their flight.
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