The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)Bordeaux, Henry
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The fear of living : $b (La peur de vivre)
Bordeaux, Henry
French fiction -- Translations into English
“My little Countess de Marthenay,” she whispered in her ear as she
kissed her.
But the girl was still silent, and her tears began to flow.
“You want to marry, don’t you? And you confided in your father. Nothing
could please me better. We shall never be parted. Armand has promised
me that.” Still unwilling to doubt the realisation of her plans, after
a pause, she continued:
“He will get on. If he cannot get the position he wants he will resign.
Your fortune will be sufficient to live on without his working, and,
besides, in society one always has something to do.”
Alice’s tears and persistent silence at last warned her mother that the
trouble she feared was a reality.
“I was mistaken then, dearest child? You refuse to be his wife? You
don’t care for him?”
Yes, that was it. Alice made an affirmative gesture and Madame
Dulaurens knew with absolute certainty that her daughter’s heart was
given to Marcel Guibert. She was mistress enough of herself to hide
her discomfiture, and she even began at once to think out a way of
avoiding an event which she considered without hesitation or reflection
to be a great catastrophe. So much was she guided by her unrestrained
prejudices and preconceptions, and by a maternal passion whose
selfishness was incapable of sacrifice.
“You don’t want to marry yet, dearest,” she murmured softly. “Is it
because you want to stay with me? But I want you so much to be happy
that I cannot agree to keep you--although I shall feel the separation
bitterly--so long as I know that you are happy, and can see with my own
eyes daily that my darling is contented. But you don’t answer. It isn’t
that, then? Have you given way to your feelings without my permission?
Can you have defied me to that extent?”
The rebuke, which had only the effect of redoubling Alice’s tears,
escaped Madame Dulaurens in an unguarded moment. Now her diplomacy
returned to her. She stopped short, and when she began again it was in
a coaxing voice.
“Am I not your best friend and confidante? Have you any secrets
from me? Dearest, I have not deserved this. If you don’t love M. de
Marthenay, if you love someone else, you must tell me. And we will
arrange your future together.” A new hope filled the girl’s heart and
at last she sighed out:
“Yes, Mamma.”
“And who is it?” asked Madame Dulaurens, kissing her. “Who has stolen
my darling’s heart? Your lips are quite near my ear. Tell me his name.”
She knew the name quite well, yet she wanted to hear it from the
trembling mouth. Alice could not resist this gentleness. She dried her
eyes and managed to say, with one of those quivers of the whole body
which follow a violent fit of sobbing:
“Madame Guibert is coming presently.... She wants to speak about me ...
for her son.”
“For the captain?”
“Yes.”
“Oh, my dearest! How you hurt me!”
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