Capitalists and financiers -- Fiction; Psychological fiction
There is need of defining these statements in so far as they apply to
Aileen. It would scarcely be fair to describe her nature as being
definitely sensual at this time. It was too rudimentary. Any harvest is
of long growth. The confessional, dim on Friday and Saturday evenings,
when the church was lighted by but a few lamps, and the priest’s
warnings, penances, and ecclesiastical forgiveness whispered through
the narrow lattice, moved her as something subtly pleasing. She was not
afraid of her sins. Hell, so definitely set forth, did not frighten
her. Really, it had not laid hold on her conscience. The old women and
old men hobbling into church, bowed in prayer, murmuring over their
beads, were objects of curious interest like the wood-carvings in the
peculiar array of wood-reliefs emphasizing the Stations of the Cross.
She herself had liked to confess, particularly when she was fourteen
and fifteen, and to listen to the priest’s voice as he admonished her
with, “Now, my dear child.” A particularly old priest, a French father,
who came to hear their confessions at school, interested her as being
kind and sweet. His forgiveness and blessing seemed sincere—better than
her prayers, which she went through perfunctorily. And then there was a
young priest at St. Timothy’s, Father David, hale and rosy, with a curl
of black hair over his forehead, and an almost jaunty way of wearing
his priestly hat, who came down the aisle Sundays sprinkling holy water
with a definite, distinguished sweep of the hand, who took her fancy.
He heard confessions and now and then she liked to whisper her strange
thoughts to him while she actually speculated on what he might
privately be thinking. She could not, if she tried, associate him with
any divine authority. He was too young, too human. There was something
a little malicious, teasing, in the way she delighted to tell him about
herself, and then walk demurely, repentantly out. At St. Agatha’s she
had been rather a difficult person to deal with. She was, as the good
sisters of the school had readily perceived, too full of life, too
active, to be easily controlled. “That Miss Butler,” once observed
Sister Constantia, the Mother Superior, to Sister Sempronia, Aileen’s
immediate mentor, “is a very spirited girl, you may have a great deal
of trouble with her unless you use a good deal of tact. You may have to
coax her with little gifts. You will get on better.” So Sister
Sempronia had sought to find what Aileen was most interested in, and
bribe her therewith. Being intensely conscious of her father’s
competence, and vain of her personal superiority, it was not so easy to
do. She had wanted to go home occasionally, though; she had wanted to
be allowed to wear the sister’s rosary of large beads with its pendent
cross of ebony and its silver Christ, and this was held up as a great
privilege. For keeping quiet in class, walking softly, and speaking
softly—as much as it was in her to do—for not stealing into other
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