The obituary notices of old Mr. Mottisfont which appeared in due course
in the two local papers were of a glowingly appreciative nature, and at
least as accurate as such notices usually are. David could not help
thinking how much the old gentleman would have relished the fine phrases
and the flowing periods. Sixty years of hard work were compressed into
two and a half columns of palpitating journalese. David preferred the
old man’s own version, which had fewer adjectives and a great deal more
backbone.
“My father left me nothing but debts—and William. The ironworks were in
a bad way, and we were on the edge of a bankruptcy. I was twenty-one,
and William was fifteen, and every one shook their heads. I can see ’em
now. Well, I gave some folk the rough side of my tongue, and some the
smooth. I had to have money, and no one would lend. I got a little
credit, but I couldn’t get the cash. Then I hunted up my father’s
cousin, Edward Moberly. Rolling he was, and as close as wax. Bored to
death too, for all his money. I talked to him, and he took to me. I
talked to him for three days, and he lent me what I wanted, on my note
of hand, and I paid it all back in five years, and the interest
up-to-date right along. It took some doing but I got it done. Then the
thing got a go on it, and we climbed right up. And folks stopped shaking
their heads. I began to make my mark. I began to be a ‘respected
fellow-citizen.’ Oh, Lord, David, if you’d known William you’d respect
me too! Talk about the debts—as a handicap, they weren’t worth
mentioning in the same breath with William. I could talk people into
believing I was solvent, but I couldn’t talk ’em into believing that
William had any business capacity. And I couldn’t pay off William, same
as I paid off the debts.”
David’s recollections plunged him suddenly into a gulf of black
depression. Such a plucky old man, and now he was dead—out of the
way—and he, David, had lent a hand to cover the matter over, and shield
the murderer. David took the black fit to bed with him at night, and
rose in the morning with the gloom upon him still. It became a shadow
which went with him in all his ways, and clung about his every thought.
And with the gloom there came upon him a horrible, haunting recurrence
of his old passion for Mary. The wound made by her rejection of him had
been slowly skinning over, but in the scene which they had shared, and
the stress of the emotions raised by it, this wound had broken out
afresh, and now it was no more a deep clean cut, but a festering thing
that bid fair to poison all the springs of life. At Mary’s bidding he
had violated a trust, and his own sense of honour. There were times when
he hated Mary. There were times when he craved for her. And always his
contempt for himself deepened, and with it the gloom—the black gloom.
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