A sweet sense of rest, such as she had never known, stole into
Winifred's heart. Some One seemed to be welcoming her with ineffable
tenderness. She was not out in the dark, but was at home with God.
The awful presence she had dreaded was infinitely sweet. At last she
stood in the Holy Place, still foolish, weak, unworthy, but with the
glory of Another's name covering her as with priestly robes, and she
worshiped.
CHAPTER III
THE CONFESSION
When Winifred awoke the nest morning it was to wonder if it were really
true--if she had come to God and He had received her. A sweet rest
still in her heart testified to a burden lifted. Her Bible lay open on
the little table where she had found the minister's text while fighting
her battle the day before. A leaf or two had blown over, and she
looked down on the sixth chapter of John and read,
"Him that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out."
Renewed assurance came with the words.
"I believe it," she said to herself. "I have been very false, but He
is true. He says the truth. I believe it."
The thought of the choir scarcely entered her mind now in her new-found
joy. The question, to sing or not to sing, had shifted to the deeper
one of relationship to God, and the peace that came with its settlement
overshadowed everything else. She went down to breakfast with a light
heart and very cheerful countenance. Hubert looked at her in surprise
from under gloomy brows. His own had been a restless night.
"Has your headache gone, dear?" asked her mother solicitously.
"Oh, long ago, Mother," said Winifred. She wanted to tell her mother
the better news than of a headache gone, but did not know how to begin.
They talked of ordinary things until breakfast was nearly over. Then
Mr. Gray said:
"Mr. Mercer was sorry to miss you from the choir last night, Winnie,
and hoped you were not going to be ill."
"Thank you, Father. Mr. Mercer is always very kind."
"He hopes you will surely be at the rehearsal Friday night, as he
expects to take up some specially fine music."
Winifred's heart heat violently as she summoned courage to say:
"I do not think I shall sing in the choir any more, Father."
"Why--what, Winnie? What's that you are saying? You not sing in the
choir any more?"
"What are you saying, Winifred," added Mrs. Gray.
Winifred nerved herself for the statement. It might as well he said
now as ever, while they were all together.
"Yes, Father," she said, "I do not think I can sing in the choir any
longer. I saw very clearly yesterday that I had never been a true
worshiper. I have never meant the words that I sang. I have scarcely
thought about God while I sang words about Him or addressed to Him.
Many of them I could not say honestly. It has all been for effect, and
to--to please you all. So I--I concluded--I--couldn't go on any
longer."
It had been a very difficult speech, and Winifred's voice sank at the
end.
Mr. Gray looked very grave.
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