But what was it to "receive" Him? In what sense did they in the days
of His fleshly life receive Him? Was it in a more physical, tangible
way than would he possible to man now? Evidently not; for of those
among whom He moved in bodily presence, the majority "received Him
not." Certainly His mission to the earth was not for that generation
only, but for all men. Perhaps the receiving was explained by the
companion statement, "even to them that believe on His name."
But to "believe" was not less difficult to Hubert than to "receive."
He had boasted his inability to believe that which was unsupported by
evidence, and had found bitter fault with evangelical doctrine, which,
he supposed, put a high premium upon blind credulity,--an attitude of
mind, he contended, which would render a man as open to receive the
teachings of Buddha, or Mahomet if he happened to hear them, as those
of Jesus Christ. He might have added, or the teachings of a Payne, or
an Ingersoll, or, as a remoter example, of the serpent in Eden who
beguiled a credulous woman.
Hubert's search had become so earnest that he did not now pause to
nurse his rancor against the defenseless word "believe," and it even
flashed into his thought that, should he study diligently its use, he
might discover in it a further or different meaning than he had
credited it with. At this point he wished for a Greek Testament, but
there was none in the house. Later in the day, however, he surprised a
book dealer by the purchase of one, and prepared himself for further
studies in the "believes" of John's Gospel.
For the present he contented himself with reading on, striving to note
all the story and its argument, passing over much, undoubtedly, that
would have spoken volumes had he had ears to hear, but still finding
much that spoke pointedly and clearly to him. He pondered the
testimony of John the Baptist to "the Lamb of God, which taketh away
the sin of the world," and did not understand it. But a feeling almost
of jealous envy stole into his heart toward the two disciples of the
Baptist, who, hearing the witness, followed Jesus. His hungry soul
echoed their "Where dwellest Thou?" in the mystical sense in which he
instinctively read it, and he felt it would be joy indeed to hear that
One say, "Come and see." Would he not come, indeed, if he were bidden!
Hubert read until the breakfast bell sounded, and then went down to
pursue his study in Winifred's bright face, and wonder how much she
really knew of the matter he was trying to search out.
"Winnie," he said to her after breakfast, "do you still think you have
begun to know God?"
"Yes," she said placidly, "I am sure of it."
"How do you know?" said he. "How does He manifest Himself?"
"I don't know," she answered. "I can't explain it, but He seems very
real."
"How did you find Him? What did you do?" he questioned further.
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