"I would that my love could silently
Flow in a single word."
She looked away from the book and gave herself to dreaming until the
little clock reminded her of the hour. Then she roused from her
reverie.
"It is too late," she thought. "I will not try to read now. In the
morning I will make up for it."
She knelt beside the bed for her customary evening prayer, and found
herself "saying" it as in former days. She stopped abruptly.
"Forgive me, Lord," she said, "I did not think what I was saying."
Then a feeling of remorse, of real unhappiness, seized her. Where was
the true worship she had coveted and found? It had flown like a bird
from her windows. In distress she prayed:
"O Lord, I have missed Thee! I cannot see Thy face, I do not hear
Thee. Do not let me lose Thee!"
Her wandering thoughts came back to the supreme need. She was not
versed in the theology of any school, and could not have stated her
case to suit any. But her sensitive soul barometer registered danger
in the atmosphere, and she had no rest until it changed. Being blessed
with the grace of honesty--with "truth in the inward parts"--she poured
out her heart before God, and found much relief in so doing. The whole
subject did not clear at once. A process was required for that. But a
simple understanding with her Lord that He was to be first at any cost
was re-affirmed, and it gave rest. With the restored sense of His
fellowship she slept.
Morning dawned with the sweet twittering of birds, the breath of
syringas and roses, and a faultless sky. It was a joy to live.
Hubert was out for an early ride, and his black horse Sahib's satin
coat shone brightly in the morning sunlight. He took the shortest way
out of the city and was soon cantering gently down the country road
beside a singing brook, filling his eyes with the beauty everywhere,
worshiping its Maker, and wondering how he might best serve Him.
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