India -- History -- 1000-1526 -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Reincarnation -- Fiction
It was some time past midnight when Fidá, baffled and exhausted,
returned to his antechamber, and, wrapping himself in his white cloak,
lay down on the floor. Weary as he was, he could not sleep at once, but
lay for a little while thinking profitlessly on what he had done. Fate
had twice given him that which he had not sought. But now, trying to
circumvent Fate, he had been doubly defeated; for, had he been where
he should that evening, Ahalya, in her reckless search, must have
come upon him. This, happily, he did not know; but he was none the
less unrighteously angry at his failure to find out something, even
the smallest, of her habits. _Her_ habits! Reason, which he had
persistently smothered, rose up against him, and began to lay before
him certain grim truths. This woman, of whom his nearly every waking
thought was now composed, was a Ranee—a queen, a wife. To her he was
an outcast, and yet he had dared to lift his thoughts to her. Fool
that he was, he had got himself into a state men called love! What
love could be more unholy than his? She was a Ranee. But, argued his
other self, he was himself a prince by birth, and the actual head of
a great race. Nevertheless, this race of his was a strangely unhappy
one; and he, Fidá, had, all his life till now, persistently avoided
women; for to his family women were fatal. He had taken the highest
pride in his reputation for coldness, for chastity, for temperance.
At sixteen he had left Yemen to put himself under the guardianship of
his uncle,—a power at the court of Delhi; and, upon his departure for
India, he had vowed lifelong devotion to the extension of the Prophet’s
power; and had determined to allow no human temptation to conquer him.
This present matter, however, he protested, was no temptation. It was
even most unlikely that he should see the woman again, considering the
difference in their present stations. Nevertheless, after a little more
chaotic thinking, Fidá took from a certain secure hiding-place in his
vestment a tiny golden box, scarcely half an inch square, fastened by a
minute spring. Without opening it, he clasped this box closely to his
breast; and, as if it held some magic power, under its pressure he grew
calm again, his brain ceased to throb, sleep stole upon him, and little
by little his hold on it relaxed, till at last his hand fell from his
breast and his treasure rolled upon the floor.
Fidá’s awakening was sudden. The tones of a loud voice, calling
confusedly, mingled themselves with his dreams. Then he sprang to his
feet to find the Rajah standing over him, in a most dishevelled state,
crying to him to bring drinking-water, instantly. And Fidá, startled
and sleepy, hurried away on his errand.
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