Bildungsromans; Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New England -- Fiction
At ten-thirty that same evening Madelaine was back in Hathaway Hall,
Mount Hadley, perfect in an evening gown of gold satin and cobweb lace,
dancing divinely with a clean-cut young fellow from Boston “Tech” who
was going to Buenos Aires in August as an architect for the Argentine
Government.
The clean-cut young fellow decided Miss Theddon the cleverest girl he
had ever met, as well as the most beautiful. She discussed architecture
with him as though she had already qualified for an architect’s position
herself.
II
The following evening Madelaine sat in her room and from her
ivy-bordered window looked down upon the little town she was leaving on
the morrow. Behind her the lights had been extinguished. Now and then a
trio of white figures moved across the lawn or the Common below, in and
out of the shadows made by the lordly elms. Happy laughter died on the
summer night. Somewhere down the street piano keys were tinkling and the
rich tenor of a man’s voice was softened by the distance.
Madelaine was thinking of Bernie’s problem. Yet not altogether. She was
also thinking of her own. Life was coming to her now as a
responsibility. She owed much to her mother, far more to the world that
had been so good to her, and the poor, perplexed, fog-groping men and
women—especially young men and women—in it. What should be her life
work? How should she try to repay that debt mounting with each passing
month and year to overwhelming proportion?
Marriage did not seem her end and aim. Not then! She had an intuition
that marriage would come afterward, after she had paid the debt, or
tried to pay it. What then?
Always her well-ordered brain came back to Bernie. There must be many
Bernies. Could she find her niche helping them? How?
She tried drastic self-analysis. Then she relaxed and tried yielding
herself unreservedly to instinct.
Finally she thought of Bernie in terms of immediate help—guiding her
through her Gethsemane—concretely. The function of nursing was but a
step to conceiving herself the physician—of body as well as mind.
The aptness of it struck her with peculiar force. A physician! Why not?
Women were assailing all citadels of professions and business. Why not a
physician? A great, warm, poignant self-assurance welled up within her.
Why had she not thought of it before?
In the ensuing ten moments her life course lay clear as an etching
before her. The film between herself and the future had suddenly been
swept aside. She was radiantly, unreasoningly happy. She wanted to sing
with the ecstasy of the revelation.
III
She did sing. Whereupon she was so happy too that she wept—a little bit.
What had taken possession of her? For the first time she felt blindly
content to relax to intuitions and emotions.
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