Bildungsromans; Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New England -- Fiction
“I’m—I’m—awful sorry, Nathan! Sorry for you! If there was anything I
could do, you know I’d do it, don’t you?”
He raised his face again. His hands wandered around the desk top, as
though groping blindly.
Fog! Fog! Or perhaps he was searching for something.
“Milly, I feel like the loneliest chap on God’s earth!” Two huge tears
brimmed in his hot, hard eyes, blurred his sight, zigzagged down his
haggard, unshaven cheeks. He arose, walked to the window. The girl’s
eyes were riveted on him. When he came close to her, she only tilted her
head back to look up into his face.
“Nathan,” she lisped, “is there anything I could do to make you—happy?”
It was her soft, ample bosom which he saw heaving that brought that
constricted feeling across his own chest and words to his lips.
“I don’t know, Milly. Oh, God, I’m tired—tired!”
Milly found the strength to rise. She had seen Nat enter the office and
followed to tell him there had been a mistake of ten cents in her weekly
envelope. But it was plain she had come instead to encounter, all
unwittingly, _her_ Amethyst Moment.
She made an appealing picture, standing before the lad with wistful
solicitation on her face,—half-frightened, not knowing whether to stay
or to flee, held half by morbid curiosity, half by the titanic
possibilities of the drama. Everything about her was cheap, but was that
not because she had been denied something better—like the boy himself?
Hardly knowing that he did so, groping, the scion of the House of Forge
raised his left hand. His fingers touched the fabric of her cloak
sleeve.
He did not especially want Milly. He wanted Woman—the solacing, maternal
spirit—wanted it horribly in one of life’s great disappointments. Milly
at the moment only stood for Woman.
The girl did not shrink from his touch. She stood motionless, waiting,
with the blood dying out of her face.
The boy’s other hand found the girl’s other arm. Both his hands crept up
toward her ample shoulders.
Nathan took old Jake Richards’ daughter to his heart. And old Jake
Richards’ daughter responded somehow, frightened out of her wits.
It was twenty-one minutes past eight. The town clerk’s office would be
open until nine o’clock. The day was Saturday and taxpayers came in to
settle their assessments and water rents. There was time, then, that
night, to get a marriage license.
Nathan had no heart to take his hideous disappointment back to a home
where father and mother were still “at it.” Forever “at it.”
Milly thought it a great lark. On the way uptown her head was swimming
with the realization.
“I guess Pa and Maw ain’t got the stunning of their lives coming when
they see I’ve copped off the boss!”
VI
One night back over the years, Nathan and I had idled down the Green
River in the starlight, and the poet had dreamed dreams of his wedding
day—fantastic, vague, exotic—the wonder noon of the future all blurred
in autumn lights, laughter, love and flowers.
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