The Fool Errant: Being the Memoirs of Francis-Anthony Strelley, Esq., Citizen of LuccaHewlett, Maurice
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The Fool Errant: Being the Memoirs of Francis-Anthony Strelley, Esq., Citizen of Lucca
Hewlett, Maurice
Historical fiction
He felt my touch, and recoiled from it: he looked at me half askance,
from under knitted brows and between blinking lids, as if he thought me
a spirit. "Paradise of God," says he then, "who is this?" His glance
lighted upon the cupboard doors set open; he frowned and said, with
difference: "And who are you that speak of angels?"
"Sir," I replied, and my convictions were never more firmly in my words,
"my name is Wretch, and I am unworthy to live. I am that vile thing once
called Francis Strelley, now brought to confusion and conscious of his
horrible offence. Sir! Sir!" I said wildly, "Donna Aurelia is the
handmaid of high Heaven.--While I, while I--O God!" emotion poured its
hot flood over me. I fell to my knees.
In the painful silence which ensued, and no doubt seemed longer than it
actually was, I suppose that he collected some half of the truth, and in
the manner of him who sees but half, distorted it to be greater than the
whole. His manner towards me altered very materially; he resumed his
authority.
"Get up," he said, croaking like a raven; and at first I thought that I
dared not, and immediately after knew that I dared. I sprang to my feet,
and faced him, livid as he was. "Doctor Lanfranchi," said I, "I have
overheard you-by accident--as you praised her. I have heard you call her
good. Ah, and in agreeing with you I can testify that you spoke more
truth than you dreamed of. No saint in Heaven is so good as she, but it
has been required of me that I should grope in Hell before I could see
Heaven in her soul."
He held himself from me by doing violence to his own person--caught at
his cravat and gripped it with both hands.
"What are you saying? Say that again. Of what do you accuse yourself?"
"Of sin," I said. He looked at the cupboard, then with chilly rage at
me.
"What were you doing in there?" he asked; and that was a terrible
question, since there I never ought to have been.
I asked him would he hear me? He nodded his head and sat grimly down by
the table, at which of late he had so happily reclined. He covered his
mouth and nose with his hand, but kept his piercing eyes upon me.
Disconcerting! but even so, had he listened in silence I might have made
him see the truth.
"Sir," I began, "it is true that I love, and have always loved, your
wife; and it is true that I have been wicked enough to declare my
passion. But it is also true that by her, and by her alone, I have been
convinced of my presumption." Here he held up his hand.
"Stop there. You say you have been convinced. How were you convinced?
Where were you convinced? Let me understand you. Was it in there?" He
jerked his hand towards the fatal cupboard.
"Yes," I replied, "it was in there. I was forced to overhear your
conversation with Donna Aurelia, which proved to me that I am less than
nothing to her, and that you are all the world."
He snorted, scoffing at the thought. "We shall see soon enough," he said
bitterly, "who and what I am."
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