The Forlorn Hope: A Novel (Vol. 2 of 2)Yates, Edmund
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The Forlorn Hope: A Novel (Vol. 2 of 2)
Yates, Edmund
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"No," he said, in a low but bitter tone. "I am done with doctoring.
All my skill and knowledge have availed me nothing, and they are
nothing to me any more."
"Nothing! And why?"
"O Madeleine," he said,--and as he spoke he fell on his knees beside
the sofa on which she lay--"how can you ask me? What have they
done for me? They have not saved you. I asked nothing else--no
other reward for all my years of labour and study and poverty and
insignificance--nothing but this. Even at Kilsyth, when you had the
fever, I asked nothing else. I got it then, for they did save you.
Yes, thank God; they did save you then for a little time! But now,
now--" And, forgetful of the agitation of his patient, forgetful of
everything in this supreme agony, Chudleigh Wilmot hid his face in the
coverlet of the sofa and wept--wept the burning and distracting tears
it is so dreadful to see a man shed. Madeleine raised herself up, and
tried to lift his head in her feeble, wasted hands. Then he recovered
himself with a tremendous effort, and was calm.
"I must tell you," he said, "having said what you have heard.
Madeleine, there is no sin, no shame in what I am going to tell you. I
will tell it to your father and your brother yet; I would tell it to
your husband, Madeleine. When I went away from England, I took a
vision with me. It was, that I might return some time and ask for your
love. It faded, Madeleine; but I claim, as the one solitary
consolation which life can ever bring me, to tell you this: you are
the only woman I have ever loved."
Madeleine looked at him still; the colour rose higher and brighter on
her wasted cheeks; the light blazed up in her blue eyes.
"Did you love me," she said, "because you saved my life?"
"I don't know, child. I loved you--I loved you! That is all I know. I
know I ought not to say it now; but I must, I must!"
"Hush!" she said; "and don't shiver there, and don't cry. It is not
for such as you to do either!" He resumed his seat; she gave him her
hand again, and lay still looking at him--looking at him with her blue
eyes full of the inexplicably awful look which comes into the eyes of
the dying. After a while she smiled.
"I am very glad you told me," she said. "People said you never cared
for the patient, only for the _case_; but since you have been here I
have known that was not true. It is better as it is. If your vision
had come true, I must have died all the same, and then it would have
been harder. It is easier now."
Another fit of coughing--a frightful paroxysm this time. Wilmot rang
for the nurse, and Kilsyth and Lady Muriel entered the room with her.
* * * * *
Several hours later Madeleine was lying in the same place, still,
tranquil, and at ease. She had had a long interval of respite from the
cough, and was cheerful, even bright. Her father was there, and
Ronald; Lady Muriel also, but sitting at some distance from her, and
looking very sad.
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