Paul threw out his hands, in the once practised and now natural foreign
gesture. "I'm not an atheist. Of course I believe in God, and I thank
Him for all His mercies--"
"Yes, yes," said his host. "That I shouldn't question. But a successful
man's thanks to God are most often merely conventional. Don't think I
wish to be offensive. I only want to get at the root of things. You are
a young man, eight-and-twenty--"
"How do you know that?" laughed Paul.
"Oh, your friends have told me. You are young. You have a brilliant
position. You have a brilliant future. Were you born to it?"
There was Jane on the opposite side of the table, entirely uninterested
in her food, looking at him in her calm, clear way. She was so
wholesome, so sane, in her young yet mature English lower-class beauty.
She had broad brows. Her mass of dark brown hair was rather too
flawlessly arranged. He felt a second's irritation at not catching any
playfully straying strand. She was still the Jane of his boyhood, but a
Jane developed, a Jane from whom no secrets were hid, a searching,
questioning and quietly disturbing Jane.
"A man is born to his destiny, whatever destiny may be," said Paul.
"That is Mohammedan fatalism," said Mr. Finn, "unless one means by
destiny the guiding hand of the Almighty. Do you believe that you're
under the peculiar care of God?"
"Do you, Mr. Finn?"
"I have said so. I ask you. Do you?"
"In a general way, yes," said Paul. "In your particular sense, no. You
question me frankly and I answer frankly. You would not like me to
answer otherwise."
"Certainly not," said his host.
"Then," Paul continued, with a smile, "I must say that from my
childhood I have been fired with a curious certainty that I would
succeed in life. Chance has helped me. How far a divine hand has been
specially responsible, it isn't for me to conjecture. But I know that
if I hadn't believed in myself I shouldn't have had my small measure of
success."
"You believe in yourself?"
"Yes. And I believe in making others believe in me."
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