Paul nodded. He was listening, with death in his heart. The whole
fantastic substructure of his life had been suddenly kicked away, and
his life was an inchoate ruin. Gone was the glamour of romance in which
since the day of the cornelian heart he had had his essential being. Up
to an hour ago he had never doubted his mysterious birth. No real
mother could have pursued an innocent child with Polly Kegworthy's
implacable hatred. His passionate repudiation of her had been a
cardinal article of his faith. On the other hand, the prince and
princess theory he had long ago consigned to the limbo of childish
things; but the romance of his birth, the romance of his high destiny,
remained a vital part of his spiritual equipment. His looks, his
talents, his temperament, his instincts, his dreams had been
irrefutable confirmations. His mere honesty, his mere integrity, had
been based on this fervent and unshakable creed. And now it had gone.
No more romance. No more glamour. No more Vision Splendid now faded
into the light of common and sordid day. Outwardly listening, his gay,
mobile face turned to iron, he lived in a molten intensity of thought,
his acute brain swiftly coordinating the ironical scraps of history. He
was the son of Polly Kegworthy. So far he was unclean; but hitherto her
blood had not manifested itself in him. He was the son of this violent
and pathetic fanatic, this ex-convict; he had his eyes, his refined
face; perhaps he inherited from him the artistic temperament--he
recalled grimly the daubs on the man's walls, and his purblind gropings
toward artistic self-expression; and all this--the Southern
handsomeness, and Southern love of colour, had come from his Sicilian
grandmother, the nameless drab, with bright yellow handkerchief over
swarthy brows, turning the handle of a barrel organ in the London
streets. Instinct had been right in its promptings to assume an Italian
name; but the irony of it was of the quality that makes for humour in
hell. And his very Christian name--Paul--the exotic name which Polly
Kegworthy would not have given to a brat of hers--was but a natural one
for a Silas to give his son, a Silas born of generations of evangelical
peasants. His eyes rested on the photograph of his Princess. She, first
of all, was gone with the Vision. An adventurer he had possibly been;
but an adventurer of romance, carried high by his splendid faith, and
regarding his marriage with the Princess but as a crowning of his
romantic destiny. But now he beheld himself only as a base-born
impostor. His Princess was gone from his life. Death was in his heart.
He saw his familiar, luxurious room as in a dream, and Jane,
anxious-eyed, looking into the fire, and Barney Bill a little way off,
clutching his hard felt hat against his body; but his eyes were fixed
on the strange, many-passioned, unbalanced man who claimed to be--nay,
who was--his father.
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