“Nor that,” sighed the youth, heavily, while a faint spot of crimson
burned on one cheek, and a feverish lustre lit up his eye.
“They did n't dispraise what you done, did they?” broke in Billy. “They
could not, if they wanted to do it; but sure there's nobody would have
the cruel heart to blight the ripenin' bud of genius,--to throw gloom
over a spirit that has to struggle against its own misgivin's?”
“You wrong them, my dear friend; their words were all kindness and
affection. They gave me hope, and encouragement too. They fancy that I
have in me what will one day grow into fame itself; and even you, Billy,
in your most sanguine hopes, have never dreamed of greater success for
me than they have predicted in the calm of a moonlit saunter.”
“May the saints in heaven reward them for it!” said Billy, and in his
clasped hands and uplifted eyes was all the fervor of a prayer. “They
have my best blessin' for their goodness,” muttered he to himself.
“And so I am again a sculptor!” said Massy, rising and walking the
room. “Upon this career my whole heart and soul are henceforth to be
concentrated; my fame, my happiness are to be those of the artist. From
this day and this hour let every thought of what--not what I once was,
but what I had hoped to be, be banished from my heart. I am Sebastian
Greppi. Never let another name escape your lips to me. I will not, even
for a second, turn from the path in which my own exertions are to
win the goal. Let the faraway land of my infancy, its traditions, its
associations, be but dreams for evermore. Forwards! forwards!” cried he,
passionately; “not a glance, not a look, towards the past.”
Billy stared with admiration at the youth, over whose features a glow
of enthusiasm was now diffused, and in broken, unconnected words spoke
encouragement and good cheer.
“I know well,” said the youth, “how this same stubborn pride must be
rooted out, how these false, deceitful visions of a stand and a
station that I am never to attain must give place to nobler and
higher aspirations; and you, my dearest friend, must aid me in all
this,--unceasingly, unwearyingly reminding me that to myself alone must
I look for anything; and that if I would have a country, a name, or a
home, it is by the toil of this head and these hands they are to be won.
My plan is this,” said he, eagerly seizing the other's arm, and speaking
with immense rapidity: “A life not alone of labor, but of the simplest;
not a luxury, not an indulgence; our daily meals the humblest, our
dress the commonest, nothing that to provide shall demand a moment's
forethought or care; no wants that shall turn our thoughts from this
great object, no care for the requirements that others need. Thus
mastering small ambitions and petty desires, we shall concentrate all
our faculties on our art; and even the humblest may thus outstrip those
whose higher gifts reject such discipline.”
“You 'll not live longer under the Duke's patronage, then?” said
Traynor.
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