He had achieved a very gallant but brief military
career in India, made a most brilliant opening in Parliament, where his
abilities at once marked him out for office, was suspected to be the
writer of the cleverest political satire, and more than suspected to be
the author of “the novel” of the day. With all this, he had great social
success. He was deep enough for a ministerial dinner, and “fast” enough
for a party of young Guardsmen at Greenwich. With women, too, he was
especially a favorite; there was a Machiavelian subtlety which he could
throw into small things, a mode of making the veriest trifles little
Chinese puzzles of ingenuity, that flattered and amused them. In a word,
he had great adaptiveness, and it was a quality he indulged less for the
gratification of others than for the pleasure it afforded himself.
He had mixed largely in society, not only of his own, but of every
country of Europe. He knew every chord of that complex instrument which
people call the world, like a master; and although a certain jaded and
wearied look, a tone of exhaustion and fatigue, seemed to say that he
was tired of it all, that he had found it barren and worthless, the real
truth was, he enjoyed life to the full as much as on the first day in
which he entered it; and for this simple reason,--that he had started
with an humble opinion of mankind, their hopes, fears, and ambitions,
and so he continued, not disappointed, to the end.
The most governing notion of his own life was an impression that he had
a disease of the chest, some subtle and mysterious affection which had
defied the doctors, and would go on to defy them to the last. He had
been dangerously wounded in the Burmese war, and attributed the origin
of his malady to this cause. Others there were who said that the want of
recognition to his services in that campaign was the direst of all the
injuries he had received. And true it was, a most brilliant career had
met with neither honors nor advancement, and Upton left the service in
disgust, carrying away with him only the lingering sufferings of his
wound. To suggest to him that his malady had any affinity to any known
affection was to outrage him, since the mere supposition would reduce
him to a species of equality with some one else,--a thought infinitely
worse than any mere physical suffering; and, indeed, to avoid this
shocking possibility, he vacillated as to the locality of his disorder,
making it now in the lung, now in the heart, at one time in the
bronchial tubes, at another in the valves of the aorta. It was his
pleasure to consult for this complaint every great physician of Europe,
and not alone consult, but commit himself to their direction, and this
with a credulity which he could scarcely have summoned in any other
cause.
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