But there were stranger things than that, to my way of thinking: and
the strangest of all was my own condition of mind. A golden, somnolent
content had come over me, as though my life had broken off short, and
commenced afresh on a higher plane. Every motive I had ever had for good
was strengthened. The old grinding problems were either solved or seemed
negligible. I saw existence in its largeness of opportunity, and I
saw its opportunity in a woman’s eyes. It was as though I had been
colorblind, and had been suddenly gifted with sight so penetrating that
it enabled me to look into exquisite distances and there discern all the
subtle and marvelous disintegrations of light.
As the car swung round corners or rattled over rough places, our bodies
were thrown into closer contact as we sat together, Vi and I. Now her
shoulder would lurch against mine; now she would throw out her hand
to steady herself, and I would wonder at its smallness. I watched the
demure sweetness of her profile, and how the sun and shadows played
tricks with her face and throat. The fragrance of her hair came to me. I
followed the designed daintiness of the little gold curls that clustered
with such apparent carelessness against the whiteness of her forehead. I
noticed the flicker of the long lashes which hid and revealed her
eyes. How perishable she was, like a white hyacinth, or a summer’s
morning--and how remotely divine.
And the tantalizing fascination of it all was that I must be restrained.
She might escape me any day.
In a hollow of the country from between the hedges, Woadley crept into
sight. First we saw the gray Norman tower of the church, smothered
in ivy; then the thatched roofs of the outlying cottages; then the
sun-flecked whiteness of the village-walls, with tall sunflowers and
hollyhocks peeping over them.
As we passed the churchyard the driver slowed down. “Thar’s the last
place your father met ’er, Mr. Cardover, before they run away. It
war a summer evenin’ about this time o’ the year, and they stayed for
upwards o’ an hour together in the porch. She’d told old Sir Charles
that she war goin’ to put flowers on ’er mawther’s grave. Aye, but she
looked beautiful; she war a fine figure o’ a lady.”
I told him I would alight there. He was closing the door, on the point
of driving on, when I said to Vi, “Wouldn’t you like to get out as well?
The church is worth a visit.”
She gave me her hand and I helped her down. The governess-car went
forward to the village inn.
They had been scything the grass in the churchyard and the air was full
of its cool fragrance. Dorrie ran off to gather daisies in a corner
where it still stood rank and high.
We walked up the path together to the porch and tried the door. It was
locked. We turned away into the sunlight, where dog-roses climbed over
neglected graves and black-birds fluttered from headstones to bushes,
from bushes to the moss-covered surrounding walls.
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