“That would take time,” she procrastinated. “We couldn’t get back before
eight. Who’d put Dorrie Darling to bed?”
“Don’t worry,” Ruthita broke in with eagerness. “I’d love to do it.
Dorrie and I’ll take care of one another and play on the sands till
bedtime.”
“Yeth, do go,” lisped Dorrie. “I want Ruthita all to mythelf.”
These two who had stood between us, for whose sakes we had striven to
do right, were pushing wide the door that led into the freedom of
temptation.
A shiver ran through her. She turned. The battle against desire in her
face was ended.
“I will come,” she said slowly.
Left in the room by myself while they went upstairs to dress, I did not
think; I abandoned myself to sensations. I could hear their footsteps go
back and forth above my head. The running ones were Dorrie’s. The
light, quick ones were Ruthita’s. The deliberate ones, postponing and
anticipating forbidden pleasures--they were Vi’s. The sound of her
footsteps, so stealthy and determined, combined with the long gray sight
of the German Ocean, sent my mind back to Guinevere’s description of her
sinning, which covered all our joint emotions:
“As if one should
Slip slowly down some path worn smooth and even,
Down to a cool sea on a summer day;
Yet still in slipping there was some small leaven
Of stretched hands catching small stones by the way
Until one surely reached the sea at last,
And felt strange new joy as the worn head lay
Back, with the hair like sea-weed; yea, all past
Sweat of the forehead, dryness of the lips
Washed utterly out by the dear waves o’ercast,
In a lone sea, far off from any ships!”
She entered. She was alone. The others were not yet ready. I could
not speak to her. “Come,” she whispered hoarsely. Her voice had the
distressed note of hurry.
We hastened up the High Street like fugitives. Windows of the stern red
houses were eyes. They knew all about us. They had watched my mother
before me; by experience they had become wise. At the top of the town we
turned to the left, going inland towards the hill on which the tower
of St. Margaret’s rose gray against the sky, beyond which lay the open
country. We did not walk near together, but with a foot between us. Now
we slackened our pace and I observed her out of the corners of my eyes.
She was dressed in white, all billowy and blowy, with a wrap of white
lace thrown over her shoulders, and a broad white hat from which drooped
a blue ostrich feather. Whatever had been her intention, she looked
bridal. The slim slope of her shoulders was unmatronly. Her long neck
curved forward, giving her an attitude of listening demureness. Her mass
of hair and large hat scarcely permitted me to see her face.
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