We came to St. Margaret’s and passed. Was it a sense of the religious
restraints that it represented, that made us hurry our footsteps? We
turned off into a maze of shadowy lanes. We were happier now that we
were safe from observation. We could no longer fancy that we saw our
own embarrassment reflected as suspicion in strangers’ eyes. We drew
together. My hand brushed hers. She did not start away. I let my fingers
close on it.
The golden glow of evening was in the tree-tops. The first breath of
autumn had scorched their leaves to scarlet and russet. Behind their
branches long scarves of cloud hung pink and green and blood-red. Far
away, on either side, the yellow standing wheat rustled. Nearer,
where it had been cut, the soil showed brown beneath the close-cropped
stubble. Honeysuckle, climbing through the hedges, threw out its
fragrance. Evening birds were calling. Distantly we could hear the swish
of scythes and the cries of harvesters to their horses. Hidden from the
field-workers, we stole between the hedges with the radiant peace of the
sunset-on our faces. As yet we had said nothing.
She drew her hand free from mine and halted. Scrambling up the bank,
she pulled down a spray of black-berries. I held the branch while she
plucked them. We dawdled up the dusty lane, eating them from her hand.
“Vi,” I said softly, “we have tried to be only friends. What next?”
I was smiling. She knew that I did not hint at parting. She smiled back
into my eyes; then looked away sharply. I put my arm about her and
drew her to me. Without a struggle, she lifted up to me her mouth, all
stained with blackberries like any school-girl’s. I kissed her; a long
contented sigh escaped her. “We have fought against it,” she whispered.
“Yes, dearest, we have fought against it.”
A rabbit popped out into the road; seeing us, it doubled and scuttled
back into the hedge. The smoke of a cottage drifted up in spirals. We
approached it, walking sedate and separate. A young mother, seated on
the threshold, was suckling her child. A man, who talked to her while he
worked, was trimming a rose-bed. They glanced up at us with a friendly
understanding smile, as much as to say, “We were as you are now last
September.”
When a corner of the lane had hidden us, I again placed my arm about
her. “Tell me, what have you to lose by it?”
“Lose by it?”
“Yes. I know so little of your life. What is he like?”
“My husband?”
She flushed as she named him. I nodded.
“He is kind.”
“You always say that.”
“I say it because it is all that there is to say. He is a good man,
but----”
“And in spite of that _but_ you married him.”
“No, I was married to him. He was over forty, and I was only eighteen
at the time. He was in love with me. My father was a banker; he lent my
father money to tide him over a crisis. Then they told me I must marry
him. I was only a child.”
“And you never loved him? Say you never loved him!”
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