Again I formed my mental picture of him, formed it with the cruel
sarcasm of youth. His body was deteriorated; his skin puckered and
yellow; the fine lines of suppleness and straightness gone; the muscles
flabby and jaded. Then I looked at her: gold and ivory, with poppies for
a mouth. Sweet and nobly chaste. A woman to set a man on fire--to drive
him to the extremes of sorrow or gladness. A woman to sin for.
I turned from the window and took one step towards her. I could feel her
body throbbing against mine. The fierce sweet ecstasy of my delight hurt
her. I saw nothing but her eyes. All else in the world was darkness.
“Let me go,” she panted.
“Do you want to go?” I whispered.
She sank her head on my shoulder. Her arms were about my neck. I could
only see her golden hair. Her answer came to me broken and muffled. “No,
no, no.”
I carried her to the sofa and knelt beside her.
“You won’t ever despise me, will you?”
How absurd her question sounded.
Without any reference to our ultimate purpose, we set about making our
plans. We must get away from Ransby. We must not be seen together any
more that day. We would meet at the station that evening, and travel up
to London together by the train leaving Ransby at six-thirty-eight. Our
plans went no further.
Now that all had been arranged, a new embarrassment arose between us--a
sweet shamefulness. She clung to me, yet she cast down her eyes, her
cheeks encrimsoned, not daring to look me in the face. We touched one
another shyly and shuddered at the contact. Our hearts were too full for
words, our thoughts too primitively intimate to be expressed. The veils
had dropped from our eyes. The mystery of mysteries lay exposed. We saw
one another, natural in our passions--exiles from society. No artificial
restraints stood between us; in our conduct with one another we were
free to be governed by our own desires.
A scurry of little feet in the passage. The sound of heavier ones
pursuing. We sprang apart. Dorrie entered, running with her arms
stretched out towards me. “Catch me, Dante. Don’t let her get me.”
The rueful face of Annie appeared in the doorway; her plump arms covered
to the elbows with flour. “If ’ee please, mum,” she said, “it warn’t
no fault o’ mine. She nipped out afore I could get a-holt o’ her, while
I war a-makin’ o’ the pudden.”
“You’re juth horwid,” cried Dorrie. “Go ’way. I want to thpeak to
Dante.”
She scrambled on my knee, clutching tightly to my coat till Annie had
vanished. Then she tossed her curls out of her eyes, and told me all
that she and Ruthita had done together on the previous evening. While
she was talking, I watched Vi, trying to realize the seemingly
impossible truth that she had promised herself to me, and would soon be
mine. A host of bewildering images rushed through my mind as I gazed
into the future. I was amazed at myself that I should feel no fear of
the step which we contemplated.
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