He shifted in his chair; struck a match; raised it part way to his cigar
and let it flicker out. Without looking at me he answered, “We shan’t
gain anything by quarreling over who’s to blame. We’ve got her into a
mess between us--it’s up to us to get her out.”
“But you didn’t----”
He flung out his arm in irritation. “Don’t waste words. I married her
when she was too young to know what marriage meant; I loved her and
supposed that nothing else mattered. That’s my share. You made love to
my wife and followed her to Sheba. That’s yours. We’ve got her into a
mess between us, and we’ve got to get her out.”
He waited for me to make a suggestion; I was too much taken aback. We
couldn’t get her out; we could only help her to endure it. We both knew
that--so why discuss it?
Turning his head and staring hard at me, he continued, “There’s only one
thing to be considered--_her happiness_.”
“Perhaps she’ll forget when I’m gone,” I ventured.
“She won’t and you know it.”
He barked the words. His manner was losing its air of tired patience.
“See here, Cardover, you and I have got to get down to facts. We don’t
help one another by fooling ourselves. You went out of her life for a
year; she didn’t forget. It’s different now; you’ve been with her in this
house and everything will remind her of you. What are we going to do
about it?”
He repeated his question harshly, as though demanding an instant answer.
What could I tell him?
He broke the miserable silence. “Ever since you talked of leaving,
I’ve been studying this thing out. I knew we’d have to face it, and yet
somehow I hoped---- Never mind what I hoped. So you’ve nothing to say?
You can’t guess what I’m driving at?”
I shook my head.
His face became haggard and stern; only the twitching of the eye-lids
betrayed his nervousness.
“I’d give anything to see Vi happy. So would you--isn’t that correct?”
He darted a challenging look in my direction. “I’d give all I possess,
I say, factories, banks, good name, popularity. She’s more to me than
anything in the world.” Then reluctantly forcing himself to speak the
words, “There’s only one way out--only one way to make her happy.”
He leant forward, clutching my knee. “You must have her.”
I drew back from him amazed, startled out of my self-possession. There
was something so horribly commonsense about his offer; I could not take
him seriously for the moment. He was tempting me, perhaps, in order
that he might find out just how far Vi and I had gone together--he might
easily suspect that things had happened during that summer at Ransby
which had not been confessed.
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